The things I do to get to you

Chapter 63

PLOT TWIST ALERT (And please have in mind that I love all the characters of this book. I just make them bad for the book. Except Darianka. She is very pretty but idk I don't like her that much)

I haven't been updating a lot recently so in advance here is a kind of long chapter!

"come in" I said as Ryland came in. He sat opposite me. " So we need to talk" I said. " Look Y/n I know it was no one's business to make a big deal of you not being a virgin and I'm sorry" Ryland said apologetically. " Wait so you are not mad at me?" I said confused. " No I'm not but who was it?" Ryland asked. I stayed silent, "It's okay you don't have to tell me" Ryland said getting up ready to leave. "No I'll tell you it's fine...it was *sigh* It was Blake" I said looking at my feet. "Go on, start yelling at me. I deserve it and I won't run away" I said waiting to hear the worse. "Y/n I already told you I'm not mad at you, It was clearly your choice. I'm just disappointed because I didn't want you to loose your V- card to him but I'm sorry." Ryland said again. "Sorry for what?" I said. "I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry that I left and didn't let you explain, I'm sorry for starting fights, I'm sorry that I broke my promise not to hurt you. I'm sorry that I didn't try hard to keep our relationship going because of my jealousy but I'm willing to start over again. Be the old me again. The better me but I get it if you lost feelings" Ryland said, I had tears in my eyes once more. "Okay we can start over but slowly, let's catch up first. Built up our trust, our friendship and we'll see from then on okay?" I said. "Sure...Now where is my hug?" Ryland said. I stood up and have him a big hug and we ended up falling on bed. We didn't move from there. I had my arms around his torso while he had one arm around my neck and the other one on my waist. We decided to watch a movie and we fell asleep cuddling.

The next day:

I woke up and saw Ryland beside me. I quickly got up and went on Nick's room that was right opposite from my room. "Good morning Nick" I said all smiley. He was sitting on his phone. "Morning" He said not getting any excited. " Why are you all smiley?" He said getting off his phone looking at me paying more attention. "What? I am not. it's nothing" I said. "So sleeping with Ryland is nothing? I get it you love him and you missed him but he just came yesterday! Remember how much he made you cry? And what about Blake? Have you spoke to him since Ryland came? I get that you guys were messing around and stuff but just forgetting about him every time Ryland is around is not okay. I'm sorry but I had to say it" Nick said. I mean he was right. I needed to talk to Blake. "You're right. I'll talk to Blake and me and Ryland agreed on starting over slow to ear each others trust and then on we'll see what will happen between us" Nick got half up from the bed and looked at me "Y/n just promise me you won't get heart broke again" Nick said. I smiled at him and came up to him giving him a hug. "okay, okay enough now. go talk to him" Nick said whilst laughing, I laughed too and went over to the sway boys side.

I walked in and on the living room and saw Josh, Quinton, and Blake watching TV I was about to look on my other side when I shoe flew a few inches in front of my face straight to the TV breaking it down. "GOOD MORNING!" Bryce yelled while he had a camera. " i just saw my life passing right in front of my eyes" i said which made Bryce and I laugh. "what the fuck was that for? You are gonna buy a new TV" Quinton said. "Wait Y/n what happened?" Josh kindly asked. "I was about to come here mainly to hang out and a shoe flew like a few inches from my face straight to the TV" I said while everyone laughed. Then Jaden was about to leave his room and he saw that we were there and went back in. "what's up with him?" I asked, "he kind of had a bad breakup and hasn't left his room since" I noticed Blake has been real quiet the whole time I was there. " And you guys didn't do anything about it?" I said kind of furious.

"Do you happen to have any pop tarts and some water or an energy drink?" I asked without letting them answer my previous question. "over there" Bryce said pointing at the fridge and the selves above. I took some of Jaden's favorite pop tarts, two bottles of water and an energy drink and headed to Jaden's room. i knocked on the door but there was no response, Jaden always acted like that so I knocked again "go away whoever it is" Jaden said angrily. I wasn't scared and I was going in either way. I opened the door and Jaden was laying face flat into his pillow. "what do you want??" He mumbled angrily not taking his face out of the pillow. " I brought you food" I said happily. Jaden got up and I closed the door behind me. He sat straight on his bed and I sat across him putting the snacks between us. " okay now what happened?" I asked "...." "cmon Jay tell me. I want to help you like you've helped me". "ugh fine, well I found out that Mads cheated on me and well it got messy but you know i really liked her y/n. I haven't got out of my room" He said getting sad. "She did that? Did you hear her excuse?" I asked hoping there would be a reasonable excuse. "There was actually none excuse, She admitted it... *in a low voice* Right in front of me". He said getting weed out of no where. "Hey put that down" I said getting it out of his hand "Don't waste your time on someone that cannot see your worth. That's why i'm taking you out in a small festival near out house tonight. Actually I'm gonna take you out of the house the whole day so you better get ready. I need to talk with Blake and I'll get ready. We'll meet here again. " I said and we both smiled at each other. He started leaning in and I moved my head so he kissed my cheek. "Haha good try hossler" I said laughing. "omg I'm sorry I don't know what got into me. Forget that happened" He said panicking. "hey you're fine" I said slightly laughing. "I don't even like you that way. Why would I do that god!" Jaden said. "hey hey hey calm down idc it is seriously nothing. Now I'll go talk to Blake and you get ready. I'll see you in a bit. " thank you" Jaden said.

I walked over to Blake's room and knocked on the door "Who is it !?" He answered. "It's me Y/n" I heard some footsteps and then Blake "come in". I opened the door and walked in to see no one in the room. Someone closed the door behind me and I turned around to see Blake. He grabbed my wrist and pinned me against the wall. I knew he had some anger issues but now he looked very scary but that's when it hit me I saw some bottles of alcohol and drugs on his gaming table. He was on serious drugs. That's when I started getting more scared. He kissed me and then he started trailing kisses down my neck. I tired to move but he grabbed my other hand too and as for my legs he somehow held them by his legs. I was so uncomfortable with what was happening and I started crying. "Blake stop!!" I said but nothing. " I said stop it Blake" i tried moving more but his grip only got tighter. That was not like Blake. I tried sliding down the wall on my knees but ended up falling with Blake on top of me. "Blake stop!" I said as I got one hand free. I slapped him. He looked at me ever angrier than before. Blake grabbed my free hand pinning me on the floor. "oh so you wanna do this huh?" he said getting a kind of rope putting my hands behind my back. I knew every room on this house was sound proof but I started screaming either way. Blake quickly put his hand of my mouth so that I couldn't scream.

~reminder: I don't feel comfortable writing things like that so I skip. you can imagine that he r@ped her~

Blake fell asleep and I had to find a way to escape. I tried and tried until I finally untied the rope from my hands. I couldn't feel anything, It was like I had no emotions left. I was .....Emotionless. I slowly got up because I was hurting and picket up my ripped clothes from the floor. I got to Blakes closet and took some of his clothes. I quickly went to my room, took a shower and changed. I wasn't ready to tell anyone what just happened, I send a message to Jaden saying that when he was ready he can meet me at my room and I lied there looking at the ceiling processing what happened. I heard a knock on the door and opened to see Jaden there smiling dressed very nice. I put on a fake smile and we went to my car. Today I had to take Jaden's mind off of mads, It was his day...