The things I do to get to you

Chapter 16

THIS CHAPTER IS GOING TO BE LONGER SO BARE WITH IT.

Y/n's pov

I woke up with a terrible headache last nigh. I felt warm and 2 arms around me. I turn around to see that i'm not in mine or Ryland's room. I was in the secret room that was at the back of the house. Then i fully turn around and see Nick beside me. I quickly sit up not even caring if i woke Nick up. Which i did. I was shocked as the thoughts of last night came through my mind. i looked over at Nick and he was as shocked as i was.

"we can't tell anyone about this" i said as i got up to sit by the pool. Nick agreed and went back to the house. I was crying by the pool because i did a really bad thing and I really loved Ryland.

Ryland's pov

I woke up with Dixie beside me and i told her to get out of the room before someone walked in. Why am i like that? why did i do that? i questioned myself. I'm such a bad person and Y/n does not deserve this. I was going downstairs and almost everyone was holding a painkiller and a cup of water in their hand. When i mean almost everyone i mean everyone except y/n .

"where is y/n" i asked

"i think i saw her by the pool" Nick said. He looked kind of guilty but i didn't think much of it. It was probably for the party last night. Before i went to her i said that this party was a huge mistake. I sounded very angry as i was mostly angry at myself. I went over to Y/n and i saw her crying by the pool. I sat beside her and asked what's wrong while giving her a hug and kisses on her forehead. I felt even more mad at myself about what i did. Did she find out. I really messed up.

y/n's pov

I finally calmed down and decided to tell Ryland what i have done because i cant hide anything from him. I knew i was going to regret this but there goes nothing. "Ryland.." i say looking up to his eyes. He seemed worried as fuck and kind of guilty? some would say. "i'm so sorry you don't deserve to be treated by that. I was so drunk last night and didn't know what i was doing. You deserve someone better" i was cut of by him. " i'm sorry i won't do it again" we both stopped and looked at each other. Both had tears in our eyes. We were both confused. Then we both let out a sigh and after a little bit of silence we both said a thing that i could not believe. " i'm sorry, i cheated on you" we both said. We looked at each other again locking eyes. We were looking at each other but i had that weird feeling. It was not a regular stare. i could feel the lust in both of us as we both teared up. "i think we should take a break" Ryland said . " yeah maybe we rushed into things too fast" i added. There was silence but the i heard Ryland speak again " Do i know them? " he said as he looked down. "yes . do i know them?" i replied with honesty" to my surprise he said yes. We both decided it would be better if we didn't say any names. After that i decided to walk away and make my way back to the house but before i could leave Ryland grabbed my wrist " that doesn't mean we cannot be friends " Ryland said and smiled at me. I just looked at him and gave him the biggest hug. It was like if i'll let him go ill die. I jumped into his arms and we both ended up falling in the pool and laughing.

Nick's pov

we all heard a loud slash coming through the garden so we all went to see what it was. I saw y/n and Ryland in the water laughing but the still both had red puffy eyes. I was not the one who noticed. I think all of us did.
Alex asked what was going on and they told us that they'll take a break from dating cause they both did mistakes. They all didn't ask because it was personal.
As I heard them i ran up to my room. I didn't feel good. I just broke a very nice relationship because I was drunk. To be honest I really wanted y/n last night but it was wrong. Tears started forming my eyes and I was just lying on my bed.

Y/n's pov

We all decided to have a pool day so I decided to go go and change because I was still wearing my clothes from yesterday. I opened the door to see nick with tears in his eyes. I quickly went over to him and cupped his face in my arms.

" It's all my fault. You guys broke up because of me. I'm a horrible person and the worst best friend. I'm so sorry " Nick said with tears in his eyes. I just looked at him and gave him a small smile before i talked. "hey it's no one's fault we were all drunk and well....turns out he did the same to me that night" Nick got what i was talking about and he didn't ask her anything else. After that they both changed and went to the pool as they all gathered up. The day was actually not so bad. And i totally didn't expect both of us to take it that easy. i don't think we have realised what we rally did but for now i'm just having fun with the people i love the most.

The next day:

I woke up and honestly that realisation hit me of what happened and what i have done, let me tell you. I . Was. Feeling. Horrible. I didn't want to do anything nor talk to someone. I stayed in my room and i really didn't feel i wanted to get up and get food either. Kouver came a few times but i still wouldn't talk. I was so lost in my thoughts i could barely hear what she was saying. At lunch Kouver came again and brought me food. I was finally paying attention to her. "ok y/n please tell me why you are like this. You and Ryland have been acting like that all day but at least he came down". All i could do was look at her and i started crying. She pulled me into a big hug. " i just realised what i did to Ryland and what he did to me. We don't deserve this. I think he's acting like that cause he realised what he did too" i said in between sobs. "It's ok bebe if you want to talk about it i'm here" she said and looked at me. " I know but i'm not ready yet" i said and then she helped me fix myself as we went to eat downstairs. As we stepped in the room i earned stares from everyone but the only one that i looked at was Ryland and i couldn't bare to look at him longer. I just sat down and ate in silent as the others were talking except from Ryland and I . I was still processing the look he gave me. He seemed broken but guilty at the same. And to be honest i was feeling the same.