Untold Stories

Break up 07

Her POV

We.. we actually experienced some things that we least expected. Akala natin magiging okey lang ang lahat but in the end we end up losing it and the worst part is, losing ourselves.

Nakilala ko siya in a very unexpected reasons. He's out of my league and obviously, we are in the wrong path.

But things happened. We fell in love and we went into the same direction. We were losing our minds. We built our own world. Not thinking that this is not normal.

We thought this is okay. But it's not. We thought that we can walk freely, we can talk all day long but it's not.

We actually forgot that we have this so called reality? Reality that we have to face. We have to go home and go separate ways and boom! Reality again.

We've been together for 2years yes. And I must say that it's perfect. We loved each other and we often fight for some little things but it's okay that is part of the relationship.

But this past few months is the most toughest months for us. I have to leave the company. And he will be alone. We thought that this is okay. But it's not. Just a month after my resignation, we broke up.

Yes. It's painful. So painful. Yung sa sobrang sakit kailangan kong isipin kung kailangan ko ba tlagang danasin toh? O kailangan ko ba talagang mabuhay?

I just don't get it. Parang hindi na namin naiintindhan ang bawat isa. Parang magkalapit lang kami pero ang layo namin sa isa't isa. That's how it is.

He really don't understand me. He thought na okay lang yung ginagawa niya sa akin. Yung he will be busy all day. To the point na ung dating 30times a day na text naging 20 nlng then naging 10, tapos naging 5 hanggng sa dumating na yung mga araw o linggo na goodmorning na lang ang kaya niyang sabihin sa akin.

Just imagine having a boyfriend that you rarely see tapos good morning lang ang masasabi? That every morning i have to wake up early just to wait for the only text that he could offer me but the thing is there was a time na maski ang good morning niya nagiging 11am na. He forgots. He forgot about me.

Then we fight. We are capable of hurting each other. He always telling me that I have to understand. Na kailangan kong intindihin na hindi niya kayang gawin yung kaya kong gawin. So ang meaning ba non mas mahal ko siya kaysa sa mahal niya ako?

I always believe that when you love someone, you always find a way. It's hard yes, but it's worth it. Am I not worth it?

Minsan nararamdaman natin na mahirap gawin ang isang bagay para sa mahal mo pero hindi kaba magiging masaya kung kahit nahirapan ka nakita mo namang masaya ang mahal mo? O mas pinipili mo yung ibang bagay kahit yung kaligayahan na ng partner mo ang isa alang alang?

I literally don't understand bakit hindi niya maintindhan yung part na yon. Yung word na "consistency"

There once a man, my ex actually, I've been so inlove with him to the extent na halos ibigay ko sakanya lahat. I can't control myself and I just want to make him happy. But he don't have time for me. He always doing things na hindi ako parte. And una palang klaro na yon sa akin.

I've been always waiting for his text. Hindi ako nagdedemand because I know him. He knows when to stop. And malaking tulong yung sa una palang alam na namin na we will never have so much time for each other. And I got used to it. Nagtagal kami ng smooth ang lahat. We rarely fight. We've had a relationship na magaan lang. Na hindi umiikot ang buhay sa bawat isa.

Then he came. My present and became my past 2 weeks ago. Sa una okay. We have so much time for each other. And we get used to it. Sobrang overwhelming yung feeling na sayo lang nakatutok ang oras niya.