831 - I Love You

15. Slowly...

After I realised that I was in love with Ghost, the complicated thoughts that I used to have whenever I was with Ghost disappeared for good. Everything was clear as a crystal now; it was normal to feel butterflies in my stomach when he was near me, to feel hot when his hand accidentally brushed mine, to want to protect him for all cost... Yes, it was normal because I was in love with him.

Ohh, it was such a relief to know my feelings! Now the heavy weight was off my mind, but there was another problem; I was too conscious of him. My eagle eyes were following him everywhere, trying to see every gesture he did, every reaction he gave and every action he took...

It wouldn't be a huge problem if only I wasn't creating any excuse to invade his personal space. Somehow my hands were finding their ways to fix his already fixed collars, hats, scarfs, not missing a chance to brush his smooth skin. Whenever we were kidding around, I was being sure to ruffle his soft hair. I was used to dragging him to the direction rather than using words.... Indeed, I felt like a creep but I couldn't help myself.

Interestingly, Ghost never complained or avoided from the proximity I showed, but he was too shy as whenever we "accidentally" get too close, he was blushing from his neck to cheeks. Soooo cuteee!

As he didn't push me away, a part of me wanted to believe that he was also sharing my feelings. But, the fear of possible rejection prevented me to confess to him. I decided to take it slow, trying the water before jumping in. I believed if I proved my sincerity, in time he would give me a chance.

I told you already that my eyes were on Ghost all the time, so not surprisingly, Wang Yong noticed that too. At one of the class breaks, he dragged me to an empty corner to interrogate me.

"Spill it out right now!" He shook me by the arms.

"What?"

"Are you... in love with Ghost?" he asked hesitantly.

I gaped for a second, being unable to answer. Don't get me wrong, I neither got ashamed of my feelings nor wanted to hide it from Wang Yong. I was just shocked that I was too... obvious!

"So?" Wang Yong persisted.

I nodded, "yes." As simple as that.

"From when?" he asked with wide opened eyes.

"I don't know when it started but I noticed it not so long ago," I said honestly.

"OMG!" Wang Yong started to laugh, "you fell in love with your so-called enemy, haha! Karma got you!"

See, it was Wang Yong. He didn't even dwell on the fact that Ghost was a guy so apparently his best friend which is me was a gay!

"So the role of karma is more interesting for you than me being a gay, ha?" I asked sarcastically.

He stopped abruptly, "shit!" He gave me a scrutinising look, "how come you never told me you were gay?!"

See, his focus was still on something else.

I shortened the distance between us, "why? Would it change anything?" I asked while pretending to be flirtatious although even I didn't know that I was gay until Ghost.

He dared me back and got close to my face, "no, you will always be my best friend, but from now on I won't introduce any girls to you."

We stared at each other for a second before bursting into laugh. However, on the way back to the classroom, Wang Yong got serious again.

"Wait, how about Ghost? Does he know? Does he love you too?"

I pouted, "have no idea, he doesn't avoid me, but that's all for now."

Wang Yong rubbed his chin, "then you need to push him a little to see his reaction."

I clenched to his arm, "how?"

"I don't know, maybe first we can observe if he is acting the same way as you do, then we can come up with something for the second step."

"Sounds like a plan," I felt a little hope sprouting inside my heart.

One step was enough for me... If he took one step towards me, I would run to Ghost...