No Harm In Love-Dallas Winston

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WARNING: CONTAINS SELF HARM, PHYSICAL/MENTAL ABUSE AND HARASSMENT

Amelia's P.O.V:

I laid in bed and thought about Dally. I had really hoped that he liked me. No, no. It's Dallas Winston, he doesn't even love anybody, except for Johnny and Johnny only. He doesn't even love himself. I sighed and fell asleep.

A couple days had passed since I got jumped, my leg was better, meaning I could walk.

*KNOCK KNOCK*

I was laying on my bed reading a good book. "Come in." I said. Darry came in, "Hey Millie, are you going to school today?" I bit my lip, "Yeah. Why?" He pulled out a switch blade, "Amelia, you need to carry this with you everywhere you go, Ok." I nodded and pulled Darry into a hug, "Thank's Darry." We hugged for a while, "I made eggs and pancakes, come eat." He said as he walked out of my room. 

I changed into this outfit. (Shorts instead of jeans)

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I put a good amount of make up on. Since I have a bund of bruises on my arms and stomach, I have to cover it with make up, lots of make up. I brushed my hair and teeth and walked into the kitchen.

The whole gang was there. Once again they were all staring at me I sat down and got my food. I looked up at Darry who was shaking his head. "No." He said in a harsh tone. "No what?" I asked. "No, your not wearing that. Go put some clothes on." He said. Nobody was saying anything. "I wasn't asking for your permission." I said putting food on my plate. Dally had a little smirk on his face. "Why are you wearing that?" He continued. "Why not?" I said eating. "That is covering almost no skin."I raised my voice, "Almost. Darry, I'm 16, I don't need your permission on what I can and can't wear." Sodapop looked up, "Darry, she's 16 leave her alone." Pony looked at my outfit and scrunched his nose and he was about to say something when I rolled my eyes at him, "Shut it." "No. Your gonna have boys looking at you all day." He said with an angry tone. "Well, thats their choice." I yelled getting up.I grabbed my back pack, "Come on Pony."

Ponyboy quickly set his dish away and walked with me. He didn't say anything about breakfast. I put my arm around him, "Pony, I'm sorry you had to see my and Darry fight. You know I love you." He smiled weakly. "I'm sorry about breakfast. I wasn't mad at you, but Darry acts like he can control me and everything I do. Its so annoying." He nodded. 

When we got to school I was already in a bad mood. Then my teacher gives us double the amount of homework. This day couldn't get any worse.

----------Time Skip After School----------

*RING RING*
That was the final bell. I just wanted to go home, finish my homework and go to sleep. I grabbed my backpack and was going to walk to Ponyboy when somebody pulled me back. "Hello Darling." Trevor said. I fake smiled, "Hi." "Come over to my house." "I-I, can't, I need to go home." I said pulling away. His grip tightened, "No. You can stay." I shook my head, "Trevor, I have to go home." He squeezed my wrist even harder I winced in pain, he took my hand and started walking towards his house, "Trevor Let me go. I need to go home." I picked me up and took me to his house he walked up to his room and threw me on the floor. I got up and started to walk out, he grabbed me from behind I turned around and socked him in the face. I instantly regretted that, "I-I-I'm so sorry. I need to go" He pulled my hair and threw me on the ground hovering over me, "You worthless piece of nothing." "Just go kill your self" "No body loves you" He yelled as he continously socked my in the face. I was crying and screaming. Finally he stopped punching  me and I got up and ran, "Were done" I cried. "You'll come back Millie." He said.

I was walking back home and my face was swollen all over. Trevor had never hit me this hard. The last time he beat my like this was when he thought I was fliting with some boy at schol. But even then all he did was kick me over and over.

Tears were pouring down my face. 

Nobody loves you. You worthless piece of nothing. Just go kill your self.

Those words played in my head over and over. I kept walking til I saw my house. I ran in and walked straight to the restroom. "Amelia? What's wrong?" Dally asked. I ignored him. I went into the restroom and turned on the shower so no one could hear my crying. I sunk to the floor with my head against the door.  I didn't know what to do anymore, I stood up and looked at the mirror in the rest room. I stared at myself for a long time.

SELF HARM 

I looked into the mirror, I had a black eye and light brusised around my face. I pulled out my switch blade and looked at it for a spilt second. I pressed the cold medal to the skin of my wrist. I hurt but it felt good. It felt like all my troubles were gone with the pain. With each cut a different problem melted away. Slice, Trevor's abuse. Slice, my worthlessness. Slice, Dally would never like me back. As I was getting ready to cut my wrist again, I heard the door open. Damn it. I forgot to lock it. As I scrambled to clean off the blood on my wrist and close my blade. I heard someone speak,"Amelia? What are you doing?!?" The voice belonged to Dally.I turned to him with tears in my eyes, "Nothing Ok? Nothing!! Get out" I screamed at him. He stood there in shock. "Amelia" He said softly. He walked in and shut the door. Blood was all over the sink and counters. 

END OF SELF HARM

His face turned stern and very lowly he said, "Amelia, what's going on." I trembled and cleaned up my mess with out saying anything. He slammed his fist on the counter, making me jump, "I asked you whats going on?"I wiped the blood away and turned to him, "Is Darry or Soda here?" I shook his head, "No. Just me. Soda's at work and Darry is too. Pony and Johnny went off somewhere. I don't know where Two-Bit or Steve are." Tears rolled down my cheek, he wiped them off. Softly he said, "Amelia, please tell me whats wrong." I opened the door and he followed me to my room. I sat on the bed and he said beside me. I laid my head on his chest, "Dallas?" "Hmm" "Whats my purpouse?" I  looked up at him. He looked at me sadly, "I don't know. But what I do know is that it's important, your important." "Then why doesn't it feel like it?" He smiled weakly, "It takes time to realize it." I looked at the ground he lifted my chin so my eyes met his, "But if you ever try anything like that again, it won't be pretty." "I'm sorry. I won't to it again, I promise." Our foreheads touched, "Please don't tell anyone." He closed his eyes, "If you break your promise again, then I'll have no choice." "Did that boy friend of your's to that to your face?" I nodded, "Ex"  He hugged me tightly.

I did something out of the blue. I kissed him, he was surprised at first, but then he kissed me back. I pulled back and looked at the ground, "S-Sorry" He chuckled, "How can anyone resist my looks?" I rolled my eyes playfully, "Your so annoying." He lifted my chin up and my lips met his and he kissed me, I kissed him back. He cupped my cheek and kept kissing me. We kissed for a long time when I realized who I was falling for. This is Dallas Winston. I could never. He doesn't like me. He's my best friend. Darry is my brother. This just doesn't make sense. 

"Amelia?" I stared at the ground. I looked up, "What are we?" He shrugged. "Cause I don't wanna be used as an object that you just use for show. I don't want you act is if you own me." He smiled, "Millie, I wouldn't do that." "All those other girls? You don't even like them and you acted like you owned them." He laughed, "Exactly. They meant nothing to me.I didn't like them. I like you." I raised an eyebrow, "Me? Amelia Curtis?' He nodded, "Yup" Popping the p at the end making me smile. "Why me?" "Cause your hot, funny, tuff, sweet, mean, hot, beautiful, nice and did I mention hot?" I grinned. That smile quickly turned into a frown, "No, no, no, no, no. Trevor isn't gonna like this. Even though I broke up with him, when he finds out, he'll kill you and hurt me. I-I don't want you to get hurt." He grabbed my hand, "I won't let him hurt you."I smiled, "Dallas Winston, will you be my boy friend." He pouted his lips, "No." "No? Why not?" He grinned, "Cause I am supposed to ask you to be my girl friend." I smirked, "Well then it looks like were both single." He shook his head and kissed me, I kissed and pulled back, "Well I suppose I could say yes." He kissed me again causing me to laugh, "Yes." 

He grinned and we kissed for a while.

"What in the world?"

We turn our heads and see Pony Boy and Johnny.