Don't give up on me

Chapter 7

**Amreen's pov**

I tried to open my eyes and kept blinking because of the brightness. All I see was a white ceiling. I looked around. No one's there. I looked back at the ceiling trying to remember what happened. I remembered that kid and me rushing to the rooftop. Someone was calling my name. My phone was on the bedside table. I checked the date. 2 days passed. There was a bell button to call someone if I need anything. I pressed the button. A nurse came in.

" What happened to me? " I asked.

" You fainted on the rooftop two days back. Your friend rescued you. Are you mad!? If you go and faint there how will anybody know that? Thank God your friend went after you. He reached on time and bought you back. Dr Lee is very angry. This is very irresponsible. " the nurse said.

" Which friend? "

" The boy who comes here this days. " she said. That means Tae.
" You need anything? "

" No. I'm going to the gym. " I said and got up. The nurse helped me. I got changed into some comfortable outfit and went to the gym. The gym is inside the hospital. That's specially for the CF patients. I started with the treadmill. Then was trying some other equipments. After 1 hour I went to the yoga room. I was meditating and practicing breathing when Tae came in. He looked tensed. I was looking at him in shock. He out of the blue came and hugged me very tightly. I was startled at his sudden behavior. I saw jimin standing at the door. He came in and sat across of me. Now his hug became tighter.

" Leave! You're choking me!" I said.

" Sorry." he said and made the hug lighter but didn't leave. I didn't know what to do. I patted on his shoulder with one hand. That's when he broke the hug.

" What's wrong? " I asked.

" Do you have any idea how worried I was!?" jimin said and Tae shot a look at him.
" How worried we were!?" he said making correction.

" Sorry guys. I didn't know what happened to me. I was possessed by something. I just saw that kid and all my memories suddenly came infront of me. I just wanted to hide somewhere no one can find me. " I said.

" Are you crazy? Is this one of your wildest fantasy! To go and hide somewhere? " jimin said.

" She is crazy. She ran passing me without even looking at me. Do you know how hurt I was!? " Tae said. I clunched my eyesbrows.

" That's a bad joke. Try something else. " jimin said. I nodded.

" Okay. Do you know how much efforts I need to put to bring you back in your room? My arms still hurt. " Tae said again. But this time it offended me. I know he was joking but I got pissed.

" Who told you to bring me back if that hurts? You should've just let me be. You wanted to be my friend. I wasn't begging for it. I wanted to thank you from my heart. But after what you said it looks like you just did a favour on me. I don't keep favours because I can die anytime. Take yourself for a checkup. I'll pay your hospital bills and return the favour. " I said.

" That's not what I meant. " Tae tried explaining. But I'm pissed and when I'm pissed it's of no use.

" Amreen. Calm down. " jimin said.

" I know he must be kidding but this isn't helping." I said.

" Breath. " jimin said.
" Calm down. "

" This is making me crazy. I'm going to my room. Once I calm down I'll call you. " I said to jimin and left the yoga room. I went to my room and sat down on the bean bag. I kept biting my nails. This is a part of my panic attacks. This happens when I'm afraid. Every small matter greatly affects me. I need jieun. I called her but she is busy with some work so I didn't tell her anything about this.

I went to washroom and splashed water on my face removing my oxygen tube. I calmed myself down. I drank some water and called jimin.

" You are okay now? " jimin asked immediately.

" Yes. I want to talk to you. Alone. " I said. He understood. I wanted to talk to him without Tae around. We decided to meet in the gym room. As both of us has free pass but Tae doesn't. He has to wait outside.

" You sure okay? " jimin asked again as we met in the gym. I nodded. I already exercised so I was moving the dumbbells. Jimin started walking on the treadmill.

" Jimin, I need to say something important. " I said.

" I'm listening. " he said.

" Did you see how Tae was tensed when he came and hugged me? " I asked. He nodded.

" He was waiting outside your room two nights and one day. He went home today morning when his parents called him. As soon as he knew your sense came back he rushed with me here. " jimin said.

" What's happening? I'm scared. My situation is already affecting him. He's reacting just like my parents did at first. That's why I initiated to stay in the hospital. So that they get less stressed. But Tae is coming here everyday. The more he gets close to me the more he'll be affected. You should make him understand this. My life is limited. I want or not I have to die." I said.

" Why should I? He's an adult. What's wrong with him getting close with you? I can see in his eyes that he loves you. " jimin said and I was shocked. Love?

" I wasn't even thinking about love. I just thought this friendship is affecting him. Love? That's not in my option. " I said.

" Why? He is a nice guy I can assure you that. " he said.

" Jimin, I know he's a very nice guy. No one has ever done the things he is doing for me. But the more I got to no him, he is not emotionally strong. What will happen after I die? If he really loves me, then what? "

" What do you expect? " he asked.

" I wish him a good life. Couldn't I get myself a boyfriend? Have you ever thought why I didn't? Because I can't rest in peace thinking what will happen to that person once I'm gone. If that person was with me for my beauty, he would move on. I'll be happy if he moves on. But what if he can't? What if Tae can't? Have you thought that? I'll be gone but his life will be still left long enough. " I said.

" I never thought this! What will happen to the once who loves us? " jimin questioned.

" Our parents will be in their worst situation. I don't want one more person to suffer. My parents will be strong because they have a son too. But as much I got to know Tae, he'll never be able to move on. " I said. I was crying by now. Jimin stopped walking and sat down on the treadmill.

" Mei. " this is all came out from Jimin's mouth. That's his girlfriend. Shit! I didn't even realize what I did. Jimin and Mei loves each other like mad. They can't live without each other. And the topic that I made him realize will lead him to make a decision. Mei is also emotionally weak. Jimin is her weakness. We all know that. Mei is also Jimin's weakness.

" Jimin, No. You already started this. Both of you love each other. I don't love Tae. He loves me or not we're not sure. Love is what matters. Mei really loves you. Don't hurt her. " I said.

" Just like you said. After I die then what? " jimin asked me. I don't have an answer for this. No matter how much I deny now but it's true our death is going to affect a lot of lives. We can't avoid our parents. But we can lessen the persons by not letting anyone new coming in our lives.

All I knew is I can't let Tae get affected by me. He needs to live his life. He can't live it for me. I can't stay clam knowing he'll suffer once our relationship gets deep. I need avoid him step by step. I can't also give him a sudden shock. That will make him stubborn. He has to leave me because I'll sure leave him alone.

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