Don't give up on me

Chapter 17

The next morning when I woke up I was feeling very sick. I was getting short on breath. I called the emergency. Dr Lee came in and checked me up. She was putting on a long face. The nurses helped me put on my afflovest so it becomes easier to breath. The door of my room opened and I saw jimin and Tae waiting there. I was doing my breathing medication so I couldn't talk.

" What happened Dr Lee? " jimin asked.

" She is not well. She is so not well. I can't take this. " Dr Lee was so upset. She was almost teary. She was about to leave the room.

" I'd die....... " I said and she looked back. " without you..... I'd die. " now she is in her tears.
" Help me. " I said breathlessly.
"Help me. I wanna live. I really wanna live. I don't want this CF to steal my life anymore. What's my fault? " I asked to myself when tears streaming down my face.

" Hang in there Amreen. I'll help you. " tae said. I looked at him which made me sob more.

" How will you help her? " Dr Lee asked to tae.

" I'll try everything I can to get her matched lungs." tae said.
" I won't let her lose to her disabilities. She will survive. She will live. I promise."

" Try hard dear. " Dr Lee said.

" I'll also help you try. " jimin said to tae. Tae nodded his head.

" Just remember I LOVE YOU. We love you. " tae said to me.
"You will live. I'll help you live. You will live all those things you missed. I promise you that. Nothing in return. " he said and left. I was crying harder.

" I swear this CF is like a prison that I have to hold myself. How I wish I can hug you tightly right now to stop you from crying! I wish! " jimin said.
" Amreen just imagine I'm hugging you." he said and hugged himself wrapping his arms around him. I did the same to myself.

" Wipe your tears. Can we talk? " jimin asked. I nodded.

" I'll leave. But remember six feet at all times. " Dr Lee reminded us and left.

" Bye Dr Lee. " I bid.

" So... He confessed that he loves you last night in the Ferris wheel and you refused him? " jimin asked. I nodded.

" But why? Look I can see he really loves you a lot. I have never seen him like this. Don't you like him even a bit? " jimin asked me.

" Are you mad?.... I love him. I love him very much. Who can refuse him except me? No one can dare to do that. How I wish I was normally alive so I could love him back telling him." I said.

" And this CF like always is coming in between? " jimin asked again.

" Yes. It is coming in between all my happiness. It is stealing away my happiness from me. " I said.

" Can I say how I feel? " jimin asked. I nodded.
" This is the worst feeling I'm going through right now. I can't see you like this and I can't help you either. I'm helpless. "

" Thank you for being there. " I said.

" Shut up. " jimin said and tae rushed infront of my room. Jimin was sitting on the doorway and talking till now. He stood up to know what happened to Tae. I made myself sit up on bed. Tae came towards me and hugged me.

" What happened? " I asked. He broke the hug and cupped my face.

" You'll live. I'll keep my promise. I got the lungs. It will be here the day after tomorrow. " tae said smiling at me. I was smiling tears again forming my eyes.

" How did you do that? " jimin asked.

" It was quite easy. I got the information of the lungs that was supposed to come this week from Dr Lee. I called on the number and talked with them that it's an emergency. They said they'll send it right away but it will take a day to reach. " tae said.