Don't give up on me

Chapter 20

" You just left my hand like that? " I asked.

" You said it hurts. " he said.

" It did. But that doesn't mean you leave my hand like that. " I said.

" You are confusing him. " jimin said in between.

" You, get out. Go to your room and sleep or chat with Mei. Go! " I said.

" Okay. Good idea. " jimin said lightening his face with the thought of chatting with Mei. This guy is whipped in love. Jimin closed the door and left. Now I looked at Tae who was already looking at me.

" What? " I asked.

" You are actually confusing me. " he said.

" Sorry. Forget I said anything. " I said.

" Can I ask you something? " he asked. I hummed.
" What is your definition of love? " I was stunned at his question.
" Nothing personal. Just say as a friend. "

" Love is beautiful. Umm.... When every detail of a person starts mattering to you, when no matter how angry or how sad you are only that person can calm you down, when you miss that person in everything you do, when his/her silly deeds looks adorable to you, when he/she wants to see you and no matter how busy you are you just feel like rushing there and no matter how far you stay your love for each other never gets less. That is love for me. " I said.

" Do you read romantic novels? " he asked.

" I used to. Why? " I asked.

" This sounds like the words of books. " he said.

" Oh hello. This is totally my words my thoughts. Maybe because I'm a writer so you felt like that. Like a writer usually are good with words. So they know how to describe. " I said.

" That's reasonable. " he said.

" Kim Taehyung. " I called him and he hummed in response.
" Do you feel this for me?" I asked.

" I'm not afraid to say but yes. " he said.

" But I'm afraid. " I said under my breath.

" Don't be. You don't have to be afraid. You know IF YOU TAKE JUST 1 STEP TOWARDS ME I'LL TAKE THE REST 99 STEPS TOWARDS YOU. Without complaining. I promise. " he said. There there. His words brought tears in my eyes. I became teary. He noticed it and sat on the bed next to me getting up from his tool.
"Why are you crying? " he asked.

" You are very bad. Very bad. The more I try to be casual you make it more difficult to breathe. You always hurt me. " I said in between my sobs. He kissed the side of my head.

" I never intended to hurt you. I don't wanna hurt you ever. I love your smile as much as I love you. " he said.

" See. You do that again. " I said and hit him slightly.

" How did I hurt you? Don't you think people like this sort of words? " he asked.

" They like it when they are lovers or couple. But we're not lovers because I'm afraid. It's not your fault anywhere. You are more than a perfect boyfriend material. But see my fate. With me your fate will also change. How can I be happy when I know it's gonna happen? Now I'm hurt because of your sweet words but someday I'm gonna hurt you very bitterly. You are right infront of me when I'm complaining but I won't there to hear your complains. " I said.

" I don't care. Atleast I won't complain about the fact that's not in anyone's hand. " he said.

" But our future is predictable. When I leave is still vague but after I leave is clear. " I said.