venus springs

affections

i wallow in silence,
never once speaking
out my true thoughts,
never acting on my desire,
on the love i have for you,
the love that fills up
my heart, making my
soul glow from within,
brighter than any celestial
wonder, leaving the stars
almost envious of the light
you filled my heart with
as it seeped through my
veins, making my body
glow from within, my skin
glittering like an angelic
creature.

she voices her feelings out loud
whilst i'm left to keep my
insistent emotions to
myself, and it isn't jealousy, no,
not jealousy that she so
publicly showers you with
with her affection while i
cannot but rather it's because
she's free to do so, she doesn't
feel as though she has to
keep silent, not a care given
as i sit by the sidelines and watch,
breathing in and out slowly,
locking my desires behind a
barrier, afraid of getting hurt again.
so for now, we'll keep my
love and affections for you
in our own little world,
as i try to be careful not to
reveal too much of the depth
of my feelings inside.