Bless Your Beautiful Heart

Chapter Seventeen-Heart Broken Conversations And Empathy

Chapter Seventeen-

When I walked into the auto part store, it felt like everyone's eyes went straight to me. I didn't want attention right now, I thought trying to walk past them, but someones hand on my shoulder stopped. I turned around, excepting to see Jack or Vic, but instead, my eyes were met with the empathetic eyes's of Kellin. I frowned, not having expected empathy from him.

"Can we talk?" He asked, motioning to my room. I looked at the group, and my eye's connected with Jack's, who nodded his head. I sighed and nodded, walking to my room with Kellin following me.

When we got to my room, I sat on the edge of my bed, not looking at Kellin. I was curious as to how he knew how I felt, but I didn't ask him. Seconds later, I felt the bed tip next to me, and I knew that it was him. "It's okay to cry Bentley.." He said softly. And just like that, I felt the damn break. I turned to him, and sobbed into his shirt. I sobbed because I had lost my dad, I sobbed because I lost his approval, I sobbed because he no longer loved me. I didn't want to leave my dad, and he had only made it harder. I wanted nothing more then to fix things with him, but the only way I could do to fix it was leave Jack, which I knew I couldn't do.

I wanted to just go back in there and apologize until he forgave me, but I knew that nothing I said would work. I chose Jack over my dad, and despite the fact that I knew I couldn't live without Jack, I also knew nothing would be the same without my dad's support.

"It's alright, Bentley, just let it out.." Kellin whispered, and I sobbed harder. I sobbed, till my throat was raw, till my eyes were red and puffy, until I had a headache. I looked at him, wiping my eyes.

"H-How did you know.." I trailed off, my voice hurting from all the sobs, but Kellin smiled, it wasn't one that held happiness, but one that was full of bittersweetness and full of sadness.

"My dad left me and my mom when I was three.." He said, his voice filled with underlying sadness and memories. I frowned, hugging him instead of just holding on. If it was anything like what I was feeling, I knew that I didn't want him to feel like that. "I know that it hurts, and I won't tell you that it stops hurting, because it doesn't." Kellin said, sighing as he hugged me back.

I nodded, feeling tears cloud my eyesight again. I felt like I was so disappointed in myself, but I was also disappointed in my dad, because he didn't have to do this. I felt angry. I felt sad. I felt pathetic. And I felt numb. It felt like all those years me and my dad had together meant nothing. I felt that I was never worth any of the trouble anyone had ever gone through.

"I-I just want h-him to b-be ha-happy for me.." I mumbled, tear spilling from my eyes again. I didn't want to leave my dad.

"I know, I know. You'll always have Jack, and if something ever happens between you two, which I doubt will ever happen, you'll always have Vic and I. I promise.." He said softly, comfortingly. I sniffed.

"C-Can you go get Vic? Pl-please?" I asked him. He frowned, nodding his head, before standing up and promising he'd be back. I know I should ask for Jack, I want to. But, I don't want him to see me like this, not now, not ever.

I laid on my bed, burying my face in my pillow as tears fell harder. No sobs came from me, just silent tears slipped down my already tear streaked face.

I was alone for a few minutes, until I heard someone walk into my room, and I felt the bed tip again. I didn't move, but a sob snuck up on me, and once that started, I couldn't stop. I sobbed harder then before, and I felt someone move me away from the pillows and into their chest. "Sh, sh.. it's okay Bentley.." Vic whispered, stroking my hair as I sobbed into his chest. I had a feeling Kellin was still in the room, because he had promised to be back.

I finally stop sobbing, but the tears kept falling. I pulled myself away from Vic's chest and faced him. "H-he s-said i-if I w-walked o-out.. That.. I-I ca-can't e-ever co-come b-back.." I said, my voice scratchy and broken. Vic frowned looking at me. "I lost him Vic.. And I can't him back.." I whispered brokenly, tear slipping silently down my cheeks.

I heard Kellin sigh and walk over to the bed, sitting on the other side of me. "I know it hurts, Bentley, but it'll all be okay." Kellin said softly. Vic nodded in agreement.

"He's right. It'll hurt for, well, ever. But I promise darling, you'll be okay.." Vic whispered, and I knew he was quoting one of their songs. It was one of the things he'd always say whenever I was upset.

"I-I just do-don't k-know wha-what to do with-without hi-him.." I said, my voice breaking. Vic and Kellin sighed, looking at each other, before turning back to me.

"What you need to do right now, is just try and focus on the good things. Your moving in with Jack. Jack's in love with you." Vic said, trying to lift my sprits. A small, barely there smile fell upon my lips, thinking about how Jack loved me, but tears still slid down my cheeks, there was an aching in my chest, and I knew that was the place where my dad once occupied, but now? He left me, and I didn't understand why.

(Sorry about the sadness.. I had an argument with my bro and I was sad and angry.. Sorry, but hoped you liked the chapter. Love you all.)