Bless Your Beautiful Heart

Chapter Twenty-Final Goodbyes

Chapter Twenty-

The time we got all got up the next morning, was filled with bittersweet excitement. I was excited to get going and move in with Jack, but again. I was leaving my home. The place that I had grown up in, San Diego, California. I was reluctant to get up that morning, because I knew I was really saying goodbye to this place, and that I would never be back. It was agonizing to think of leaving this town, but the thought of moving in with Jack made me stay with my decision.

I got up slowly that morning, putting it off. I knew I'd have to say goodbye to my dad, even if he didn't want me to. I loved him, I couldn't just leave without saying goodbye. I was holding onto the hope that maybe he would forgive me. But I knew that was very unlikely. So, I decided to just say goodbye for myself.

I wanted to skip my dad, and just say goodbye to Tony and them, but I couldn't. So, after telling the guys and Sarah I was going to say goodbye to my dad, I walked out of the auto part, prepared for the worst.

I walked into my old- my dad's house. And walked straight into the kitchen, knowing my dad would be up by now. And that he was, sitting at the kitchen table, drinking his coffee and reading the paper. The only thing out of place was Angelica, who was doing dishes, humming to herself. I half expected him to look up at me and greet me with a smile, but instead, I was greeted with a scowl. "What are you still doing here?" He sneered. Once again, I wanted to walk away, but I needed to this for myself. So, I held my ground.

"I just came to say goodbye." I told him, being straight forward. I expected him to jump and wrap his arms around me, telling me that he loved me and was so sorry for what he said. He did stand up. But instead, he remained away from me, a scowl on his face.

"I don't want your goodbyes." He said, hatred filling his voice. I was so confused. Why was he being like this? All I wanted was to be happy with Jack! That's all I'm asking for. With the thought that this would be the last time I ever saw him, I spoke my thoughts.

"Why do you hate me so much?! All I want is to happy! That's it! After all these years you pushed me toward someone, I finally found someone I love and that loves me and would never leave me! I freaking took care of you for years! I did everything right! I don't know what I have to do to get you to accept me," I yelled, tears now running down my cheeks as my dad and Angelica starring at me wide eyed. "I don't date, you push me towards it! I finally do, and you hate me for it! God! What do fucking want from me! All I want, have ever wanted, was to be completely happy! That's it! You know what?! Fuck you! I am done with all your bullshit!" I shouted, before glaring at him one last time and walking away for good.

Tears were still still spilling down my cheeks, as I walked back towards the auto part store. Part of me regretted saying that, but the other part was furious. I was sick of not being good enough for him. It seemed like I could never make him proud.

I had wiped all the tears away from my eyes, and only anger remained as I walked into the auto part store. Everyone all quickly turned to me, all of their eyes going wide. I'm sure I looked like a mess, my hair still messy from waking up, my eyes red and puffy from crying, and anger still flashing in my eyes, but slowly, it disappeared as I walked further in.

"What happened?" Sarah asked, walking over to me, and frowning in concern. I sighed, did I want to tell them I blew up at my dad? No. But I'd have to eventually, I'll go with eventually.

"I'll tell you later, right now. I gotta say goodbye to my best friends." I said, smiling slightly at my four best friend, Mike, Vic, Tony, and Jaime. They all smiled back at me, all of them walking up to me and hugging me.

"I'll miss you, little sis. Don't do anything I wouldn't do." Mike said as he hugged me, before pulling away and winking. I rolled my eyes with a smile, giving him a mock salute. Next Jaime hugged me, squeezing me tight.

I smiled, returning the hug. "Do good without me by your side, will ya?" He asked, grinning as he pulled away. I chuckled, nodding my head quickly. He grinned once again, before letting Tony hug me. I smiled, hugging the Turtle back.

"Be careful and stay safe." Tony said, giving me one last squeeze, before he pulled away from me. I held back tears nodding. I smiled slightly, nodding my head. He smiled at me before walking back over to the others, saying goodbye to all of them. Next, was the hardest one to say goodbye to. My absolute best friend, Vic Fuentes. He gave me a smile, hugging me tight.

I felt tears run down my cheeks again, as I hugged him back just as tight, not wanting to let go and just listening to his words. "You better text and call me. And I will remember to ask you what happened. I love you, sis. Be careful too." Vic said all at once, getting a small chuckle from me as I listened to him go on.

"Of course. I love you too." I said, a watery smile on my lips. He smiled back at me, and I could just see tears watering in his eyes, but he wiped them away before they were even really there.

"Oh, and do we need to stay away from Jeremy?" He asked, raising an eyebrow. I thought about that for a minute, then hesitated before answering.

"Stay away from him for a little bit." I said, before pulling him into another hug. Vic chuckled but hugged me back.

Finally, it was time for me to pull away, and I looked at the boys who I had known for years. "I'll miss you guys so much. I'll text you, I promise." They said the same thing back, in their own ways, before I had to walk on the bus, with the Sleeping With Sirens guys and Sara. I turned back one more time, smiled at them, and went on the bus. Kellin was driving up front, and the rest of the guys and Sarah were in the back lounge. 'Welcome to my new life,' I thought, with a bitter sweet smile, as Kellin drove out of dad an-my dad's auto part store, looking as we drove away from my life, and into my new life.

(Aw! Short, I know, but I wanted to get this chapter out today! This will NOT be the end of Bless Your Beautiful Heart, promise. Comment, favorite, vote, love me. ^.^)