The Baby Project | S.M. Fanfiction

C H A P T E R F O U R T E E N

Ashley's P.O.V:

Since the day I was at Shawn's place, he hasn't been at school. He hasn't replied to any of my messages, calls. I am afraid that maybe talking about his dead sister wasn't a good idea. I blame myself for it. I don't want to show my feelings to my parents. They may think that Shawn broke up with me or something. But it isn't true. I think...

"Honey, are you okay?" My mom asks.

I look up and give her a small smile and nod.

"I'm sure that this is Mendes' fault" My dad says.

"I'm okay dad. I'm just tired because of school" I lie. I am stressed because I don't know what is happening to Shawn.

"Are you sure about that? Cause I know that he hasn't been in school"

"I said I am okay- wait- you know what is happening to him?" I am shocked.

"I heard from the other officers that he's in a gang and he doesn't have much time to go to school"

Yes, my dad is a police officer.

"I don't want to hear you saying bad things about Shawn, cause I know it isn't true" I stand up and I go to my room.

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After an hour later, I see my dad coming out of our house. So he goes on night shift. I am sitting in my room, looking at my pictures of Shawn and me, when I hear a knock on my door.

"Come in" I say. I look up to see Shawn and my mom.

"I let Shawn come in, because he needs to talk with you" My mom says and leaves

"Shawn, I'm so happy to see you. I was wondering where you are" I say while hugging him.

"Y/N, let me explain something"

"What do you mean?" I ask. I am getting worried.

Shawn's silent and nervously running his hair through his hair. My arms are crossed over my chest

"Well"

"I don't know how to start..."

"Shawn, if you're not going to explain why you've been so distant lately then-" He cuts me by saying.

"I'm in a gang" Shawn says. I don't know what to say. So my father was right then. After a some time of a silence, I decide to break it.

"Shawn, I don't know what to do right now, I don't know what to say. I thought you changed. But I was wrong"

"Just give me some time, I have to work on it. Cause I am addicted to them and I just can't leaveit like that" He begs me.

"I'm sorry Shawn, but I need to think about it. I can't believe you've done it. Please leave, I need to think" I say it, my voice is cracking and I have tears in my eyes.

Before he leaves my room, I hear him whispering. "I love you" I don't reply, I don't look at him. I am mad and sad at the same time. He lied and he still lies.

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The next day, Shawn appears at school. He wants to talk with me. 

"I don't want to hear everytime the word 'sorry'. I just want to know, why? How long" I have tears in my eyes.

"I'm in a gang. But I am trying my hardest to get away from it. I don't care about it" He says.

"I don't know if I should trust you this time" I say, my voice is cracking. 

"Honey, I promise I will end with it. For you. But you have to be here, for me"

I am thinking about it and I finally make a decision.

"Okay, I will help you, but we have to keep this a secret"