I will find you Wei Ying

Chapter three

Chapter Three

Lan Zhan found himself waking up slowly the next morning finding himself curled up behind Wei Ying who held A-Yuan against his chest. Briefly, he wanted to stay in bed drawn to the warmth that laying behind Wei Ying provided...it, of course, wasn't just his warmth that made him wish to stay...the relaxed look on his face the innocence of his face as he slept drew him in reminding him of when they first met...though he also remembered quite clearly the mischief sparkling in his eyes or when he was about to do something he wasn't supposed to the concentration as if he was trying to decide if it would be a good idea or not.

He, of course, had begun to watch out for the signs that Wei Ying was about to do something to upset his uncle or the others. Then he began to find ways to stop it from happening...perhaps that was when his obsession began. At first, he was furious with the only person he had ever known to challenge everything he had ever known...then at some point, the anger was replaced with something else, during their month-long isolation in the library pavilion or before he couldn't really pinpoint when everything changed for him.

He started craving seeing his smiles that made him feel warm all over or the occasional time he would reach out and try to touch him.

Obviously, he avoided it but no one knew how hard it was to continually avoid his touch, having been craving it but then the pout Wei Ying got after he avoided his touch seemed to make it even more difficult not to reach out and touch him as he had been wanting to do.

Only his brother caught what was going on with him it became even more apparent when one time he had caught him moving his hand to touch Wei Ying, as he was pouting at him avoiding his touch but the moment, he realized he was being watched he quickly moved his hand behind his back clenching it until his nails dug into his skin which grounded him before he started reciting the rules in his head.

It, of course, became even harder not to do anything stupid when they had been begun to travel together In search of the Yin Iron...sleeping in the same room as him had him restless throughout the night until finally he very briefly gave in to his need to touch Wei Ying until he found himself beside the bed where he was sleeping and ever so carefully sat down beside him his heart catching in his throat when instinctively Wei Ying moved closer to him as if sensing him. He reached down with a trembling hand before carefully pushing some of his loose hair behind his ear.

He immediately yanked his hand back when Wei Ying chased the sensation in his sleep then pouted when he didn't find it. Lan Zhan quickly left his side terrified by the feelings that were rushing through his blood the moment he finally gave in to his need to touch him. Then he felt bad about it knowing that he had broken one of the rules he had been following since he could walk.

His heart also clenched when he realized he had violated Wei Ying's trust by touching him when he didn't know about it. He had lain there for a while trying to get his breathing under control only for it to be impossible which had him sitting up and quickly getting into the Lotus position and forcing his body under control so he could meditate, 'If only you knew how difficult it is not to give into you Wei Ying.' He thought bitterly before his mind went blank as he easily slipped into a deep state of meditation.

As he thought about this a streak of melancholy hit him as he watched Wei Ying sleeping. Then he felt the overwhelming feeling that he should not leave that day as if something were going to happen while he was gone.

He didn't listen as he slid out of the bed and went to get ready for his day knowing he wasn't going to be able to do his normal training because he had to leave for Gusu right away to get there before the crowds began showing up. He put the scrolls he had separated from the others into the quakin bag at his side before he very carefully moved A-Yuan out of Wei Ying's grasp knowing it would help him to concentrate if he wasn't focusing on A-Yuan. A small smile appeared on his lips when he realized that he would do that just because he could.