as i woke up to mimi placing a gentle kiss to my head she handed me a small tray of food , and a cup of peppermint tea.
i thanked her for doing this even though i could do it on my own . luckily it was a saturday today so i got changed in to a normal dress and helped wash laundry and make food .
it had been two weeks since i had left mums and i miss seeing my sisters. Once every single thing had been done i sketched as few trees and the flowers from our garden and painted them in the violets and bright pinks and yellows .
it was calming and once i had painted it let it dry as i did some school work and played the guitar.
for once i decided to sing along to the song i played which was love me tender. after all it was one of Georges favourites from elvis. it reminds me of the sweet nature he has hidden away from everyone but his closest family members. :
love me tender love me sweet
never let me go
You have made my life complete
And I love you so
Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For my darling', I love you
And I always will
Love me tender, love me long
Take me to your heart
For it's there that I belong
And we'll never part
Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For my darling', I love you
And I always will
Love me tender, love me dear
Tell me you are mine
I'll be yours through all the years
Till the end of time
Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For my darling', I love you
And I always will
i sang along quietly to the melody since i felt brave enough to as i hoped no one could hear me,yet i was oblivious to mimi walking past to put away some of the dried clothes from yesterdays laundry. i didn't think i could sing but when i saw mimi almost in tears i thought something bad had happened but then she voiced " beatrice you have the voice of an angel how come you don't sing honey "
i glanced down and said " well i don't think i can actually sing plus you are the first person to hear , i really don't think i can sing so i don't even hum since bobby told me it's not ladylike to hum or sing so I don't."
there was a knock at the door and mimi went down to answer it . as i put away my guitar.
i walked down the stairs to see john asking if he could live here since he felt bad for taking my room .
we all went to the kitchen and mimi was begging me to sing for john " come on mimi i can't actually sing i'm dreadful you are just saying nice things about my voice , i am sure I actually sound like a dying cat , i know I am dreadful so please just stop saying I am good when I am clearly not but thanks you for being kind about it " i said whilst turning around and making pasta puttanesca .
" please sis i want to hear your voice mimi says it's angelic please " john begged on his knees giving me puppy eyes so i said giving in to it even though the puppy eyes don't work " alright fine john i will sing but get up of your knees before you dirty your pants even more but if your ears bleed it's not my fault so it's on you ok ." He nodded in response
" what do you want me to sing then mimi or john but i have to know it " i chuckle and plate up the food that was cooked .
johns then said " can't help falling in love" i smile and hummed the melody whilst drumming my fingers to get the beat.
" ok that's fine "
so i started sing softly the lyrics as i still felt a bit uncomfortable so i closed my eyes and pretended i was just in my room like earlier :
wise men say only
fools rush in
but i can't help falling in love with you
shall i stay
would it be a sin
if i can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you
john looked at me shocked and said softly" why didn't i hear your voice before it's like mimi said " i looked down and ate a piece of pasta and state " i don't think i can so i don't thats why plus i was told I shouldn't plus I'm nervous about singing for others as people judge women more then men for every little detail so I just don't want to attract the wrong attention for my singing ."
after putting away pots i felt a sharp and painful cramp in my abdomen and say to mimi whilst hinting at her " do you have a hot water bottle i have a stomach ache ." she nods and gets it for me . She heated it up and I sigh in relief as it already starts to soothe the pain a tiny bit
I knew I would hate the next few days since it is hell , but at least it tells me that i am not pregnant , which is really unlikely since I am still a virgin . I am not like Mary and Elizabeth from the bible telling us god sent them down as a gift , I am not exactly sure if god exists
i trudged up stairs and collapsed in to some comfortable pyjamas and dove under the covers clutching the hot water bottle for dear life as i try to get the ever increasing pain to slowly ebb away. ughhhh the pains of being a woman.
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