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six months had passed since the first time i met paul properly and i was helping the band with music and teaching john a few things but only things that paul might not have known , but then again he probably did and john just let me teach him for bonding .

in another two months john would be 19 and. i knew mum would want to spend money on a party . this party would contain a lot of booze consumption and smoking

i changed and went to school but on the way i stopped of at Paul's since I not long ago found out that we live surprisingly close to each other " hey paul" i shouted over to him as he was leaving his front door sorting out his uniform tie and tucking in his shirt " hey love " he replied back once he started walking over his tie still a mess but him trying to fix it causing me to giggle softly at him,

i don't know why he calls me love but it always makes me blush either of embarrassment or something else. when he calls me love i get wilder butterflies. yet i don't know why. its not like he would like me like me. why would he there's marie and all her friends in that year. girls with better bodies,bigger boobs,flatter stomachs then my flat stomach,better hair,they wear makeup more noticeable. they even have better posture and the curves of their hips.

i have become close friends with him and he has also became very close to john as he had taught him a few things that i didn't know .

we always chatted about random things but we both have in common the fact we play left handed on the guitar .

as we walked into school we went our separate ways . that was until lunch where john and his band along with me sat . whilst they yammer on about girls and breasts . they were comparing the girls breasts with each other for the ones they had screwed . i tried not to listen since i was the only one on the bloody table who was a girl and had breasts . It's like they didn't even realise that I was there with them , they giggled and chuckled as they did so. I felt like that  I didn't belong there since I was basically being ignored from the group

i sat doing a test from my year when paul came and sat next to me . " Mccharmley  can you kindly move away from her your  too close  she needs personal space so scoot over I don't want you to touch her  and she does not need to be tainted by shit aftershave or any guy who is not family in general" john said trying to be intimidating but it didn't work. He failed massively but the gesture made me giggle at the over protectiveness that I never would have expected to see from John. paul stayed next to me with our knees touching as I sat cross legged on the bench

i stopped writing the test answers and said to john really annoyed but thankful that he cared about me enough to say something to someone who could try over step their boundaries " johnny relax he's fine but i think you should really stop taking about girls and having sex and jerking off and stuff plus did you not think i would actually want to hear you talk about how many times you have screwed the same person or how big such and such' breasts are it's disgusting no wonder you were suspended and it's awkward sitting here when I am the only one here who actually does have breasts,  did you think of that when I was here or was I just one of the lads or even invisible from the conversation until now oh and this gig I heard about when is is " "bea that's Thursday" Paul replied to me as I nodded a quick yet small thank you

i stood up huffing and heard someone voice with a visible smirk in his tone once i sorted the hem of my skirt out since it had risen up quite far since I sat with a leg over my other almost high enough to show the bottom of my pj shorts

" well sweetie you can't say much all you should be doing is fucking a man or cooking for us so get back in the kitchen and make some food or stay out here with us and flash us your very big tits and no doubt your pretty pussy to , you know I heard the rumours of Beatrice lennon the school whore , prostitute or was it slut but either way I know you have fucked half the guys at this school your worse than us darling . after all you should be spreading those gorgeous thighs of yours for us princess. maybe it would be an inspiration to us" I glanced to Paul who looked infuriated with the boy who dared to say all of that