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Why did you do it

Everything was going perfect , I was doing amazing at school and was getting great grades in every single subject and not to mention got the highest marks with my music project well with Paul .

By this point john had Learnt blue moon and countless of other songs to as paul and him collaborate on more songs that I also check over for some grammar and if needed I change the lyrics so that it would go better with the melody .

The group as a whole had started writing songs which took alot of time . Paul and john were inseparable and like brothers even . But I had noticed the fact that Paul's songs with johns were really good and were naturally powerful but I did notice that there was a love song in the pile which contained a lot of chicken scratch. It had to be johns maybe he helped a band member write it but I flicked through more until I came across the song Paul sang once at a gig , it was powerful , full of love and I was very jealous since I thought it was for some other person , that was until I flipped the page over and at the very bottom in small print is said ' for Beatrice Lennon , the girl I fell for after everything I saw at the fair and class, the sweet yet cute and beautiful counterpart to John Lennon the goofus of school and my friend '

Of course john being a loving brother and very protective of me as i was his little sister . He often let me sing or practise with the group but most the time i just sat and stared as paul's hands were dancing along the fretboard with a smirk etched on his handsome face .

Today was different though i sat and drew a picture of john with his glasses on as he said to Paul " how's my buddy holly look" I giggled softly at the face that he made as he said " good it's good" and then one of paul with his signature smirk holding his guitar as his hands were placed on the fretboard on a g chord . his dimple showing on the right side of his face .

As practice ended paul glanced over at me and asked " love you okay ." i was snapped out of my imagination and looked up nodding profusely as pete then snatched my note book on the page of a song i was kinda editing of johns since he didn't know if it was good or not . so i had decided to help him since he allows me to watch them have band practice. It didn't help I had cramps bad ones at that

" lookie here the band addition. who ain't even  in the fucking band and just hangs around here because she is the band leaders sister and thinks she  is writing songs ohh but wait what is this ." pete said whilst turning to an old page in the which i has spilt my confessions on to the page . He had a small smirk as he realised what it was

" really pete you absolute dick your just pissed at the fact i am naturally more poetic so I get to edit and write the band songs with them because all you fucking do is get a hard on when you are near me and so you think that you can make fun of me as i do something useful unlike you as a washboard player so do all of us a favour and find a girl that you can bone without thinking it's me as well as the fact I enjoy helping the band and stuff , I get you all drinks and make you food and I basically do everything that John does and more ,

I'm acting like your fucking
mother minus bathing you since your incapable of doing it and I don't get a single thanks for it and the only person who does thank me for my hard work is my boyfriend, you know the one who's writing most the songs ,

he wrote a song just for me and he's helping Johnny with his guitar as well as he's a true gentleman, he's writing songs to and he was the newest member yet you took it out on me , Johnny and Paul both have pure talent your just the washboard player in the back , your just being a dick Pete just because I'm taken so you act like a twat and try to impress me

but when I work hard and am helping everyone but myself you have to help Alex and that blonde bitch spread false rumours about me just so my standards would drop but you want to know something Pete , your a self centred jerk who likes peoples pain sometimes I wonder if you even feel pain yourself"