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A month past and i soon found out paul and the band would be going to hamburg . i used the money i got from selling my old guitar to pay for a ticket to go with them since i couldn't last without paul's support.

i asked mimi to go and she said yes as long as i stay with john . she got our passports and what ever else we needed , paul didn't know that i was coming with them .

i had packed up and went downstairs .

paul said a goodbye to me and walked down the road with John but then i ran to him and said jumping on his back " McCharmly did you think you would be actually leaving me here . i payed for tickets to come with you ."

he grinned and mimi said for us to call when we arrived . i did just that and every week john and i spoke to her on the phone and kept her updated .

i missed her dearly but with the band and my two favourite boys i was constantly happy and helped along with a few songs here and there and became like a manger of sorts to them and an editor, Pete got used to me being around then and and became less of a dick to me and respected me as me and Paul still did a little bit of pda but it was more than normal

Each year when the anniversary came around me paul and john would put down a set of flowers and pay respects to both George and mum .with out fail we would go home and do this each year on the anniversary of their deaths, we always left flowers at the grave of mum and paul cried with me as well since he understood the pain and heartbreak, each time we went me and Paul visited his mother's grave and said a prayer for her and left flowers, each time I set foot at her grave I crumbled to me knees and cried for awhile and whispered things about Paul treating me well knowing that she is watching over her son the same for George and mum