I'm nobody's b!tch

Part 12: Tessa's "feel better" note

A/N: Okay, so i heard that there was a bit of confusion when it came to Marie and the nurse, so i just want to inform you that the nurse and Marie are two completely different people... Marie simply knocked the nurse out and took her form, because according to me; Succubus can do that... Anyway, enjoy:D

Silas' jaw falls open, it's almost comedic... "The... The kiss of... death" he repeats, slowly. Then he lowers his head and growls. At what, i'm not certain... But it's scary... "That... That bitch!" he shrieks, glaring at nothing in particular. He roughly grabs my shoulder, and to further damage my pride, it makes me whimper. "Are you sure? Are you completely 100% sure she said the kiss of death!?" he shakes me. I nod, not wanting to say anything more... He swears under his breath and i blink.

I swallow "I-is it true..? That i can't be cured?" I question, my voice shaking. Silas bites his lower lip, but nods "There is a cure... But- But i don't want to put you through that... Besides, we need the woman who poisoned you for it..." he sighs, looking apologetic. Suddenly i feel anger flaring up in my chest "You don't want to put me through it!? You would rather have me die!?" i hiss through my teeth, Silas flinches, pulling at his hair "I didn't mean it like that!" he groans, rubbing tiredly at his eyes. "Well, it sure as hell sounded like it!" i growl.

Silas sighs "Fuuuck... You weren't supposed to take it like that..." he sounds tired... The anger builds up, this is really not what i want to hear right now... "Then how, Silas... Was i supposed to take it?" i narrow my eyes at him. Silas sucks in a breath, i can tell he's getting angry too "Look, even if we did catch that bitch to make the antidote, it would most likely just kill you faster, understand!?" he barks. I flinch and look away. No hope for me afterall... Despite the situation i find myself laughing, loudly at that. Silas cocks a brow, staring at me as if i'm crazy... Perhaps i am...

"Kendal?" Silas' voice is shaking, he seems worried. He takes my head in both hands again, "Hey... We're going to find a way... You'll be fine okay?" he tries to soothe me. I shiver "Liar..." i try to glare, but in my current state it probably looks more like a pout... Silas shakes his head "I'm serious Kendal... We will find a way to fix this..." he says reassuringly, offering me a calming smile. I push him off, shaking my head "Don't promise me something you can't know for certain... Besides, three years aren't even enough time to search properly..." i huff, laying back unto the bed, trying to ignore the dull aching pain in my chest.

Silas moves into my line of sight again "Hey... Don't think so pessimistically... We'll try..." he sighs. He then stands up, brushing off his pants. I can't even be bothered to ask where he's going... Not like it's any of my business anyway... I close my eyes, kind of just waiting for everything to go away... The pain, the sorrow... Just everything...

"I'll be back to visit you... Just get some rest, i have something to take care of..." he says tiredly, before exiting. I feel surprisingly lonely when he's gone... It's funny... Considering that the only thing i've wanted since i arrived here was for him to leave me alone... But since i just slept, i can't seem to sleep again... Not that i need to, because the door opens again. I open my eyes to see who it is, and the sight causes me to nearly jump out of my bed. It's that damn nurse again! But... She seems to be like when i first met her... And she's bleeding from her forehead... Is this the real nurse? Was Marie a fake?

The nurse rushes over to me and sighs in relief when she's finished inspecting me. "You're safe!" she breathes, the relief is evident in her voice... So that's the real deal then? "As okay as a dying person can be..." i deadpan, laying back down again. The nurse sends me a wuestioning glance, but says nothing... Perhaps she thinks i'm just overreacting...

"Anyway, i think you can return to your room very soon... Your recovery has been going great so far..." se tries to smile, but to be honest, i'm too tired of this shit to even bother smiling back... I just turn over, so that i'm not facing her anymore, and i silently cry myself to sleep... Luckily the nurse doesn't notice, or at least it seems like she doesn't notice... At least she leaves me alone to vent out some of my frustration.

I wake up an hour later, and when i do, i realiize that the room is once again empty... Which is fine, i don't really feel like seeing anybody else right now... Might be nice to tell Tessa, but that might not be a good idea... I look over at the nightstand next to my bed, my book is on top of it, together with a bottle of my favourite Soda... A small white note is tied to it, with a cutesy little picture of a green haired girl drawn in crayon... It's kind of easy to see that Tessa made it... The little Tessa is winking, giving me a thumbs up... Over the drawing the words "Hang in there!" are written in big bold letters... I flip the note around, and i spot a small message for me. "Heard what happened, we'll figure something out! Me and Sienna can sniff that bitch out for sure and kick her sorry ass to oblivion! Hope you feel better soon my Kendy bunny! If you don't cheer up i'll smack you! Love - Tessa and friends~~" Kendy bunny? That's new...

It's a pathetic attempt to cheer me up, but i can't help the small smile that reaches my lips. Man tears on the way, probably because i'm still scared out of my mind... How can i be fixed? How can i be happy? But at the same time, i feel relieved that Tessa is still willing to support me through all of this. I sniffle and wipe away my unshed tears.

I pick up the soda, i wonder how much trouble she went through to be able to get this... I pop open the cap and i take a good long sip. The carbonic acid burns my tongue and throat as i swallow it, but that's the best part, no? I just despise soda without fizz...

The drink makes me feel a bit better at least... Not sure how much longer i could go without one... I lean back in my bed, pulling my book into my lap. I just read until the sky turns orange, and then black... With the soda long gone, there are no distractions.

But i just can't seem to fall asleep again, so i just end up reading throughout the night, even though the nurse scolds me for it in the morning- which she does. But i just can't seem to find the energy to care... She sighs and sends me one final piercing look before she heads out to fetch me some breakfast...

But other than the nurse, nobody comes to visit me throughout the day, not Tessa and Sienna, not Charlie, not Leophol, not Road not even Silas... I guess even i get lonely too sometimes, but i can understand why they can't spare me any time... They have classes, and homework... And Tessa probably has her Hall-monitor duty to take care of...

I find comfort in the Get well note at least, looking at it makes me a little less lonely, surprisingly enough... I sigh, wondering how long i actually have to stay here... Shouldn't be much longer, my body just needs to stop hurting... The dull ache in my chest never left though... It still bothers me, even now...

The nurse, whose name is Annalie- brings me my eight cup of tea today... She understands what i want even without me telling her... That's what you'd call a professional i guess... None of that matters anyway... I don't think i've uttered a single word at all today... I just don't feel like opening my mouth to speak you know? Might seem åathetic coming from me, but...

yeah, you get it already... I'm a dying man, i need to get over it blah blah blah... It's not that easy... Annalie studies my face closely, she can tell i'm distressed... So after another two hours of the silent treatment, she's had enough... She crosses her arms stubbornly over her chest "Listen here you, your friends told me what the deal was... Are you going to spend the rest of your days rotting away like this? At least say something..." she scolds, her glare is fierce...

I look away, not feeling like i have to grace that with an answer. She sighs "Listen, Kendal... I know this is painful, but you need to make the best of it... I'm not going to give you false hope by telling you that you might be fixed, if that isn't possible, make the best of the time you have left, okay?" she finishes, patting my head.

I nod, muttering a hushed "sorry..." and just this simple word, seems to satisfy her, because she sits down at my bedside and pulls me into a hug. "It's okay... You seem like a good kid... After i release you, you could always come back here and talk when things get hard... I'll have a cup of tea ready for you by then..." she smiles. I weakly wrap my arms around her waist, trying my hardest not to cry again. God damnit... Why does she know exactly what i want to hear?

Our sweet moment is cut short when i hear the door opening and a very loud shriek followed by a furious "OH HELL NO!"

A/N: WOOOOO~~ I'm actually quite happy with this one, even though i can't ever dream to convy just how hopeless Kendal actually feels... Haha, i think all of you can guess who the person who entered at the end is huh?

So sorry for having A/N at both the beginning and the end, but i felt like i had to...

Anyhooow, i hope you enjoyed!