I'm nobody's b!tch

Part 21: Unexpected visitor

I sniffle, god that ended horribly... I need a shower... I just hope that mom doesn't notice, then again, she's probably already gone to bed. At least the guys had enough decency to wipe off my face afterwards... My jaw hurts, my ass hurts, my back hurts, my everything hurts! And to top it all off i'm yet again humiliated and tired to boot... A sigh passes through my lips, glad the girls weren't there to see, now that would have been awkward...

I step into my mom's shop, which is the only way to enter our house from the front side... Since it's evening, the smell of bread and flour is gone... Too bad, i like that smell... But when i step into the hallway, the first thing i see is an unfamilliar pair of shoes... Does mom have a new boyfriend or something? No, if that were the case she would have told me... Is someone staying over?

I step into the living room, all lighst are turned off, mom is probably asleep... But what about the visitor? Suddenly, the lights are turned on and i can hear the door close behind me. I whirl around, and i blink. What the fuck? What the actual flying fruity skittle fuck? I rub at my eyes before opening them again. Nope, not an illusion... I don't remember having any drugs either. But then what the fuck is he doing here!? Silas... Silas is leaning against the door i just entered from, arms crossed with his brows creased in annoyance. I can't even feel happy about seeing him again, i'm so confused!

"Silas what are-?" but before i can finish my sentence, he pushes me against the opposite wall, pinning me there "What the fuck are you doing here?" he hisses at me, his eyes flaring. My eyes narrow on reflex "I could ask you the same thing..." is what slips out of my mouth, without me having any control over it. "I came chasing after you! Why did you leave!?" hurt flashes through his eyes, and my own eyes widen until they're about the size of dinner plates. Silas was worried?

"The principal sent me here..." i look down "To tell mom..." i finish, my stomach churning just by thinking about it. Silas sucks in a breath, he hadn't expected that... "Oh..." one of his hands slide down from the wall to reach up and ruffle his hair "Then why didn't you say that before you left?" he sighs, closing his eyes. "As if i could... After that..." i mumble, wrapping my arms around myself, almost like i'm cold or something.

But i'm not cold, at least not on the outside... The movement hurts my chest, and i squeeze my eyes shut for a moment, but i open then in time to see Silas staring quizzically at me "After 'that'? 'That' being?" he asks, frowning. I sigh, he really hasn't heard... "After i heard you say you didnt want to stay around me because of me dying..." i hiss, making him physically recoil. "Y-you heard that?" he seems shocked, yet i nod... "Yeah, had me locked up in my room for a week, only to be forced into rehabilitation... More like hell on earth really..." i shrug, trying to seem casual. Silas clenches his eyes shut, leaning forward so that his forehead is resting on the wall behind me, right over my shoulder. "I'm so sorry..." he whispers, grabbing my other shoulder "Kendal, god i'm... I'm so, so, sorry... i though you went home on your own accord you know? And then Leo comes telling me that it's my fault you left... And then it turns out it kind of is..." he chuckles sadly. I can tell he's being sincere... And i guess that me having the slightest crush on him hands out those extra brownie points, because i find myself forgiving him...

"Hey... It wasn't your fault i was sent back here... I had to tell mom sooner or later..." i pat his back, if only to comfort him a little... He takes in a deep breath, as if being about to sigh, but then he freezes. He slowly pulls back, staring down at me, until finally, his eyes settles on mine. At firsts he looks confused, then his face lights up as if he's realized something, before immediately turning into anger. He groabs my chin with one hand, and pulls my shirt down my shoulder and i soon come to realize what he's doing.

I push him away from me, using the momentary surprise to actually do it. I then turn my back on him. Shit he noticed, shit he noticed, shit he noticed! And i forgot! How could i have forgotten!? Silas recovers, once again grabbing my shoulder, but this time, he forces me to face him. "What the fuck is this?" he points to two places on my body, my cheek and my collarbone. I swallow harshly, he's going to find out... And if he didn't hate me before, he's sure to hate me now...

I should try to take control of the situation... But the only way i can do that is to...

I snake my arms around Silas' neck, taking him by surprise, he glares at me for a second, probably wondering what i'm doing. "You don't know do you?" i try to smile like i'm relaxed, but my heart is beating like crazy... I'll only have one shot at this... If i can avoid making him hate me, in any way possible- i'd do it... So perhaps i can try to seduce him... It'd be a challenge that's for sure... "No, theres no way you'd know..." i smirk. trying to keep myself from crying once again. I think either way would break my heart...

"I'm what you'd call a... Village bicycle..." i finish, trying to sound proud. Which is hard, what i am is nothing to be proud of... Silas looks taken aback, he stares at me like i'm crazy for a second, but then his features soften "I see..." did it work? No, i can see it... He looks disgusted for a moment "And you chose this profession why?" he sneers, pushing me off of him. Chose? A sudden unexpected flare of anger swells up inside me "You think i chose this!? You really, really think i chose to be like this!? Well, fuck you because i didn't!" i hiss at him, careful so i won't wake mom, i'm more tempted to scream right now...

Silas once again takes a step back in surprise, he frowns "What? What the heck does that mean!?" he hisses back, crossing his arms. I laugh coldly "Did you know? None of the guys here has ever fucked one of the girls... Not one... You know why? The girls have standards, they wouldn't give themselves to one of them if they were the last people on earth!" i pause to catch my breath, why am i telling him? It should be fine, shouldn't it!? I just blew my only chance to stop him from hating me! "So the guys thought: Kendal looks kind of like a girl, and since he's gay, it should be no problem!" i chuckle darkly, i have no control of what comes out of my mouth, or evenw hy i'm saying it, but Silas' eyes widen in understanding, and his jaw drops open "You know, it was difficult the first few times, since i struggled so much, but as time went by i got used to it you know! I'd even say i'm quite confident in my skills!" and now i'm bragging without even meaning to... This is so embarrassing...

Silas stands eerily still and stares at me for a few seconds, giving me enough time to calm down "i- i mean... i uhm..." but before i can take it all back, to say that it's a lie- Silas seems to snap out of it "You mean they took you by force?" his voice is shaking as much as my body is, i clench my eyes shut, managing a nervous laugh "Ahh, uhm... You know what teenage boys are like! Not able to control their urges and whatnot... I- i don't mind... at all..." i can barely squeeze the words out, Silas glares at nothing in particular. "First off: It's not normal for teenage boys to rape other people because of puberty, it doesn't work like that! Second of all: If you don't mind, then why the fuck are you crying!? And third of all: Tell me where these bastards live so i can knock some sense into them! And lastly: What the heck happened to your face!?"

he touches my cheek, and i hiss in pain. So it started to bruise after all? I manage a small grin "One of them uh... Punched me in the face while i was jerking him off... Haha, it was worth it though, you should have seen the look on their faces when i told them i was dying... It was priceless..." i sniffle, and with a start, i realize that Silas was right, i am crying... God damnit, as if i haven't embarrassed myself enough for today... Unexpectedly though, Silas pulls me in for a hug, rubbing circles in the small of my back for comfort. This however, does only fuel the waterworks. For a while, i seriously thought he would get tired of comforting me, but he didn't. Silas actually waited until i had cried myself until i couldn't cry anymore before pulling away. With a sad smile he wiped away the remainder of my tears. "Uhm you uh" i croak, real smooth i know... "You should probably get a change of clothes or something... Since you hugged me while i was still covered in... You know... yeah..." i sniffle, rubbing at my eyes triedly. All that crying has taken a lot out of me...

Silas frowns for a second, but nods "Right, and you get your ass in the shower... You look horrible..."

Fuck you too... 

A/N: HOLY SHIT 1,1K READS!? Thank you guys so much! Hahah!

So, did any of you guess right about Kendal's secret? Might be cliched, but fuck it... I liked the idea, especially when i think of what Silas may or may not do...

Anyway, hope you enjoyed!

Stay classy folks!