Dates, Dreams and Diapers

Chapter 7

Niall's POV

Last night's kiss still lingers in my mind when I woke up and the only thing that brought my head away from it was the dream of Jack growing up. But if I try to look past the future, I just start thinking about Liam again, and that stupid kiss.

I, Niall Horan, kissed my best friend, Liam Payne; and the memory of it still gives me shivers. To help combat my nefarious mind, I try to focus on making breakfast for myself, Jack and Li. I got up extra early today, despite the dream that interrupted my sleep, to make breakfast and to do a bit of shopping, which reminds me that I should probably get a list together.

When the eggs are halfway done, I hear Liam come into the kitchen. "Morning sunshine," I hear him say next to my ear, and if it were anyone else, then maybe the would have fainted. But I'm Niall, his long-time friend and band mate, I know better than to do this. But when I felt Liam's arms wrap around my waist and give me a peck on the cheek, all I could do is shiver at the tingles. Pathetically.

"Liam," I start, turning around in his arms, "we..."

Liam looks at me with his big brown eyes, guessing that what I'm going to say would either make him really happy or sad. "Liam it's only been a few weeks since you and Danielle. Maybe you should take some time to yourself." I regret saying that the moment it flies past my lips. I do like being close with Liam like this. But I don't want to be the rebound for Liam, who's going through the stages of heartbreak, only to realize that this could screw us over and break my heart. 

But I also have a crush on him. A crush that began a year after One Direction was formed. On some days, I'd tell myself to get over it and just move on to some other conquest. Other days I'd be so wrapped up around him that I looked like some needy person.

Then came the day when Liam brought home Danielle. I felt like my heart just snapped in two at how happy they looked together, how good they looked together. Liam and Danielle seemed like they were so in love and couldn't be torn apart. But the real pain came when they caught me, coming out to the boys back in our flat.

I don't like to remember it, because of the argument I had with the happy couple right after I came out. Liam was surprised and Danielle was pissed; I guess she thought that I might try take her precious Lili away from her.

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"Niall, mate, your a poof? Isn't that a sin in the Bible or something?!"Liam called making a face that said he was more disgusted than shocked. While the other guys smiled for me, the words from Liam cut the happiness down and made me upset. I couldn't believe Liam would say something like that, so I used an unfriendly tone against him.

"Yeah, well, I can't help it. It's just the way I was born, you got a problem with that?!" I saw him flinch and the look of hurt on his face, and couldn't help but feel sorry, even though he was the one with an issue.

"Don't talk to Liam like that, you little fag!" Danielle yelled at me, and although I knew she meant nothing to me...that still hit home. Nobody said anything, but the fighting started up as soon as I turned away and ran for my room. Zayn and the others were still yelling at each other back and forth by the time I ran out of the house in a blur of tears. I took my car keys, wallet, jacket and the cage with Molly and Lolly inside. I stayed in a countryside hotel that night, ignoring calls from the others until I returned a day later, if not for the sake of the band and to feed my cats. It was Louis who found me curled around my pets. I was in my little room next to the kitchen, and snuck in when none of the other lads were around.

I still feel the crack where my heart broke, when Harry told me that Liam moved out shortly after. The months that followed would be of me ignoring Liam and him trying to win me over. Of course, I only held out for a month, but even though it helped me in some sort of way, it didn't feel right. Making Liam apologize over and over again, along with being given expensive gifts may seem a little cruel, but hey, I was a pretty hurt. I'm not sure if Liam will ever forgive himself for pushing me out like that, and that just proves how much of a better person he is, than me.