Dates, Dreams and Diapers

Chapter 21

A/N: Alright a little bit of backstory for this chapter and I apologise for the long wait. It's just hard trying staying cool in the summer when you're a winter child :3

Niall's POV

"What is it Ni?" Harry asked with a concerned look crossing his and Zayn's faces. This was the day I would tell them, this is the day they find out I'm gay. The band has not been together for a year just quite yet, but I can't keep hiding this from them. They have shared so much about themselves to me and it's only fair that they know this about me.

I had gathered the two I was able to find in the livingroom for the news, and while I know that Liam is out with Danielle, I have no idea where Louis is. Once inside the bare room with only a couch and a large screen TV, I sit the boys down and prepare myself. Yet while readying myself, basically just staring straight ahead at the white colored wall, I tell myself that this needs to come out.

But at the same time...I'm scarred.

Management called in Harry and Louis and told them that the idea of them dating would be bad for the image of the band and that they should not even try to become a couple or have any romantic relations in any way. And if they deny them that life choice then what will they say about my mine?

"I-I have to tell you guys something...wait. Where's Louis?" I stutter out in a little panic.

"Oh he's out on a date with that Eleanor girl. I think they quite fancy each other." Zayn says and Harry remains stoic, however, I know that the mention of the name 'Louis' usually has the boy grinning like there's no tomorrow.

Well anyway, I had better get back to confessing to the boys....even if two are missing.

"Well, I wanted you guys to know something very personal about me since I've been trying to keep myself a secret for a while. You guys are my best friends and you deserve to know." Harry and Zayn by now are both on the edge of their seats, waiting for my news.

"I'm gay..." I say with a little waver to my voice. And what seems like forever to me of silence, may have been about a couple of seconds to Harry and Zayn.

"Congrats mate, do you fancy any one of us then?" Harry says with his charming smile and I blush.

"Oh come off him ya sleez. Niall wants a gentlemen, and he'd better be gentle. He shouldn't even touch him, he's too pure for any man. You know, just wait a couple years before you date Niall, otherwise I'll tear your boyfriend to shreds." Zayn says, his father-of-Niall side taking over again.

"Thank you guys so much." I say getting a little teary again.

"Wait, so you're...gay. But Niall isn't that against the Bible or something?" Liam says, and if my hearing isn't going, then maybe Liam just used a tone that screamed 'disgusting' with me. Frowning at being spoken to like this, I think over my response. I know being gay isn't all that acceptable, especially for the Catholic community, but I can't help that I feel strongly for other men. It was hard and scaring coming into terms with my sexuality, but when I came out to my parents and brother, I felt like those problems just melted away. Greg even threatened to murder any man that: dared to lay a finger on me, be rude to me, mock me or push me to have sex.

To this day I wonder how he would feel if I pursued Liam. But going back to Liam's tone of accusation I respond.

"Yeah, well I can't help it. It's just the way I was born, you got a problem with that?!" I then see the little flinch Liam did when my words struck him. I know it was uncalled for seeing as I'm one of the more calm members of the band, but having your crush be disappointed and angry because of something big about your identity really hurts; and when I say it hurts it does.