Second Chances [Na Jaemin] ✔︎

☁️Prologue☁️

Tbh the only disclaimer that you'll be needing is that this book is half-edited. So i do apologize for the grammatical errors ahead. And also it's....quite cringey so read at your own risk, anyways enjoy!

--- - messages 

*** - Flashbacks 

... / [ ] - time skips  

[Saturday 4:33 p.m. at a local Cafe]

"So do you still like ....him?" Minji asked as she looked at me, waiting for my reply.

"Maybe if he didn't say that I'm selfish or self-centered then maybe I would still be there for him. Moving to Seoul was the best decision I made."

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Summer after 11th grade

here we go again

What?

u're always like that

Like what?

u're selfish, u have no time for me. u asked me if i'm fine and of course i lied saying that I was

I asked you three times. I can't message you last night since I had a lot of things to do.

I'm sorry...
//seen [9:38 p.m.]

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"How are you guys?"

"I still think that I love him, but I wish I could just move on."

I did one thing right, at least for myself, I moved to Seoul to continue my studies in hopes of being successful and to also move on.

"You did move on!" She exclaimed as she smiled.

"What?" I asked in confusion.

"You moved into another city!"

"Yeah okay ha...ha...ha" I may sound sarcastic but honestly ... Her corny dad jokes also makes me happy and would also make me smile, well sometimes.

"I'm just trying to make you laugh, besides leaving him was the best for the both of you."

"Yes I know, though I still can't help but feel guilty every time I remember him."

"You shouldn't feel guilty, you left him for his and your own good. You're far from being selfish, you're actually caring because you left him for a reason."

I didn't speak, knowing that I would end up defending him. It still hurts, even though it was a year ago, the wound is still fresh. Leaving him was the best for the both of us, for our relationship was really toxic. I think I made the right decision? I don't know. Or maybe I was stupid that I left him alone knowing that he needed someone. But what can I do? I felt suffocated, I tried my best to help him, but he told me that I wasn't helping and that I was selfish for not being there when he needed me the most.