𝑯𝑨𝑹𝑴 & 𝑯𝑶𝑷𝑬; 𝑳𝑨𝑺𝑯𝑻𝑶𝑵

chapter 16

ashton

i don't think there's anything harder then realising you've been wrong all along.

that everything you've ever believed and wanted was something bad, that it was something not worth it.

all the pain i've caused to the people i care about, all for that?

absolutely fucking nothing.

i've gotten nothing from being here. from being dead.

i know it's time for me to go back, to face the harsh reality of this damaged world, and live it like a real man.

i know it's time, that i've had my fun and it's time to go back, time to stop being selfish.

it's time to make michael, calum and luke happy, to give them back what they want.

all i've ever wanted is for them to be happy, for them to be successful and get everything they've ever wanted in life.

and if me being alive is going to give them that-then i can do that for them, i can make them happy this time.

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luke

getting the call to get to the hospital as fast as you can without having any context along with it is something that drives me fucking insane.

is he okay? did he wake up, did he not wake up? did he die?!

all these questions clouding i'm my brain as michael drives to the hospital, only slightly above the speed limit-as he says.

i'm shaking, my whole body is on overdrive and the amount of anxiety and adrenaline coursing through my veins is enough to make me want to vomit.

i hope with every part of me that he's okay, that he's woken up.

honestly, if i ever had the chance, i'd give him my life. my breath, my love, my everything, just so that he could wake up and feel okay.

we arrive at the hospital and race in, running to ashton's room.

calum meets is at the door, smiling at us and hugging us both.

calum looks at us and gives us a smile. "i think you're gonna wanna go in there guys."

michael and i look at eachother, going into the room.

there are three doctors in the room, and ashton is still laying on the bed.

they notice us, smile, and move out of the way.

i look over and see ashton, still not awake, but he looks better.

"he moved. you guys are lucky you got here fast, because now you'll be able to watch him wake up," one of the doctors informs us.

i break, lets just say that.

my knees buckle underneath me and calum and michael race to catch me before i fall, and i'm crying.

tears are streaming down my face at a crazy speed, as i don't know what to do.

"he's-he's gonna wake up? my baby's gonna be okay?!" i say loudly, covering my mouth to stop the happy sobs threatening to spill.