Missing You XxJushiro Ukitake x Reader (Bleach)xxx

Falling Apart

!Attention mature content in this chapter!

"Since then we got to know each other more and more with every week..", Jushiro explained calmly and took another drink. Stunned, Shunsui observed his friend silently. Who would have thought? Back then he knew about those check ups, because of Jushiro's condition, but this wasn't crossing his mind ever.

"I never knew you were this close to her... The way you speak about the past sounds like there also happened more between you two.", Shunsui joked with a perverted grin. "Bullseye..", smirking knowingly of his friend's nervousness, he chuckled in delight.

"my my my.... So you've kissed.", Shunsui teased his friend, but froze, after Jushiro was fighting for words.

"What? Don't tell me you and (Y/N)! Jushiro! You mean this close!? And you didn't tell me!?", Shunsui shouted shocked, watching his friend intensively.

"You know it was so sudden and I don't know..i..it happened... everything happened so fast.", Jushiro stuttered embarrassed. Sighing Shunsui calmed down, while shaking his head with a smugly grin.

"How unfortunate.. So that means you were together then. A secret relationship. I am a bit hurt that you didn't tell me. I wouldn't be in your way. You know that..", Shunsui spoke seriously and waited for his friend to tell him more.

Brushing through his white locks, Jushiro bite his lips in bitterness.

"I wish I could say yes... It hurts...it just hurts so much..this frustration..to be this helpless...I hate myself for letting her go..for losing her.."

Xxx100 years agoxxx

Weeks past rather quickly and for (Y/N) it became normal, like routine, to just step into Jushiro's chambers, without hesitation. She felt comfortable around him, finally more confident. They even were able to have some carefree conversations. Nevertheless there was this one special part, which let her quite shiver of nervousness. But she couldn't blame herself. Taking off a captain's haori and touching a man's bare chest, an well build and attractive bare chest, wasn't really easy to handle. And it wasn't like this only for her. For Jushiro it was getting more and more difficult to hold back. Beside this unbearable longing, this burning desire deep inside, there was also this heated tension in the air

But he couldn't....He didn't want to scare her away.

"I see that you are feeling much better. I am so glad..", (Y/N) whispered, while putting the salve onto his chest, carefully like always. Observing her silently, Jushiro noticed her slight struggle from her position beside him to work properly.

He wasn't sure how to step across the line..

How to make her realize....

But it seems at that very moment, his body worked on his own.

Slowly reaching out to her, Jushiro placed his hands carefully onto her hips to pull her closer, till (Y/N) sat onto his stomach, automatically straddling him. Shocked about his move her body froze in the spot. Eyes widened she looked down into the unexpected lustfilled eyes of the captain.

"In this position it's much easier.. Don't you think, my dear?", he whispered lovingly, making her bite her lips in embarrasment.

He knew he went too far. Honestly he still was holding back badly. She was so caring, so sweet and god was she beautiful. The past few weeks, he was working hard, so hard to show her affection, to show her that he wanted so much more with her, but things were going slow. Too slow. Or was he so helpless in his tries?

(Y/N) couldn't believe what just happened. This was definately more about just helping out like he used to. How could he do this to her? The sudden change of his speaking, the position she was now, mixed with his lustful expression, was making her inner self scream.