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(Chapter 29: I Can't Be Free From This Lie)

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A lot of people would just keep the pain they feel to themselves, not letting a single one leak out. There are people that don't share their pain with others but instead helps them to be positive and strong so they wouldn't feel the same way... [Contract Lovers With My Idol]

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The time already says it's time for me to go; to leave. I softly and gently gave Euhna a quick peck on her forehead making her ruffle the sheets in sudden discomfort. I smiled one more time in front of her before leaving for my tour.

"I know you'll miss her but we have to go now or else we'll miss the flight" Manager Lin walked out of our room but I stayed there for a quick minute trying to find a way, a reason for me to stay

Euhna is enough of a reason for me to stay here in Seoul, to stay by her side. But she'll always insist for me to go, for me to leave, sometimes it feels like she just wants to be lone and to be away from me. A place where she can be herself, without my presence.

I fixed the sheets and covered it back to her before waving goodbye even though she wasn't awake.

I'll be back as soon as possible.

I'll be by your side when this is over.

I'll stay with you.

I'll be there for you in the pain you might be feeling.

So... Wait for me...

I wanted, no, I tried to let those words through my mouth but it didn't, it wasn't easy. I couldn't just recklessly promise to be right back to her side whenever she'll call my name. I just want her to be the same, even if I'm not there. I just want her to be okay and fine when I'm gone.

If only I could reschedule this all I would, but I can't. The only thing I could do now is to go back as soon as possible when this is over. When I can finally be back to her again. So I smiled one last time before going out of her room and closed the door shut.

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Jimin left already, it's been exactly eight hours since he left my side. I know he wanted to find ways he could think of just to postpone, just to reschedule this tour but his wishes weren't met. I'm left alone in this apartment, his perfume still in the air circulating.

My mom will pick me up in less than three hours, I really wanted to stay in his apartment so I could still feel that he's there even if his physical self isn't.

It's been eight hours and I already miss his teasing. I wanted to run around the apartment today, doing some things that require me to be alone but in the middle of that, the fatigue hits me.

The moment Jimin landed in Japan he face timed me and I was happy to see him smiling through the phone, through this tiny camera. Even though he's standing on land nine hundred and twenty-six kilometers away.

He always finds time to message me, even though he's busy he would call for a short while asking me if I'm okay; if I need anything; if I want him by my side. Honestly, I do, I really do. But I don't want to say yes and he'll buy plane tickets and fly back to Korea just for me.

*DiNg dOnG*

My mom must've arrived, it's still an hour early than the time I stated for her to arrive. I lazily swayed my feet to land on the ground, trying to balance myself by putting one hand on the wall then on the railings until I could reach the front door. My mom immediately pulled me towards the cab that was waiting outside, I just sat inside confused.