One Night Can Change your Life.

chapter 10

So today is the first day that Ethan gets to spend with Hazel. Not going to lie I'm kind of scared.  Because he has to lie to his girl friend about where he is going an what he is doing since she doesn't know that Ethan is her father.  During school he kept looking at me and smiling which made me question if I should let him come over. But he is Hazels father so guess I have to. He also texted me a few times telling me that he was happy to come over and sped time with her.

She is 3 months old right know and I can't believe she is that old already. I was so angry the day she was born but now I couldn't live my life with out her. When I'm at school all I think about is her. I bet Ethan doesn't think the same but whatever I don't need him.

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So Ethan is now a half hour later than what he said he was going to be and not a text saying he wasn't coming. so this shows me how much he really wanted to spend time with his daughter.

All of a sudden I hear a knock on the door and I go to see who it is and it is none other than Ethan himself.

"Sorry I was late and didn't text. Allison wouldn't let me leave. I had to tell her that my mom wanted me at home to do some chorus.and I didn't text you because than she would have asked to look at who I was texting and then she would have been pissed and I wouldn't be here." He explained then looked down at my arms. "Is that her?" he asked

"Whatever at least you till came. Yes come in I was just getting her ready for bed."

We walked inside and went up to my room.

When we got up there I finished getting her PJ's on.

"would you like to hold her I guess?"

"I would love to."

"Do you know how to hold a baby?" I asked

"Madi I have a younger brother and lost of younger cousins I think I know how to hold a baby."

"Fine" I say as I hesitantly hand him Hazel.

The look on his face when he held his daughter for the first time we priceless. He looked happy for once because whenever he is with Allison he never looks happy. I can't help but feel a little happy for him. Wait Madi what are you doing you can't have feelings for him he has a very serious girlfriend. 

After a while she got a little fussy so I went downstairs to get her a bottle. When I came back up there the look on his face we complete fear he didn't know what to do.

"I have tried to rock her, bounce her, and I even changed her diaper but she wouldn't stop crying and you just left me with her all alone." He said is a panic.

"That's because she is hungry and ready for bed. do you want me feed her or do I feed her?" I ask.

"You can feed her I think this is enough for one day and I should be getting home its late."

"Okay I will walk you to the door."

"YOu don'e have to do that."

"Yes I do you are a guest."

as we walk down the stairs Hazel is just sucking down her bottle like she hasn't eaten to two days.

When walk to the door he gave her a kiss on the head which surprised me.

"Thank you for letting me be part of her life I really appreciate it."

" No Problem see you Wednesday."

"See you tomorrow at school can you send me some pictures of her please."

"yeah sure no problem."

Once he walked out the door I shout it and went back to my room and sent him the picture I took of them tonight without him knowing. 

As I was doing this i relisted that I was starting to fall in love with him and I can't be doing that which is what scares me the most right now.

...............................................A week later.........................................................

Ethan has now came over every  night he said he would and he was on time and now its like Hazel knows that Ethan is her father because every time he leaves she cries. And as for me I have completely fallen in love with the idea of us being a little family. When we see each other in the halls at school we smile at each other and wave. I think he is also starting to fall in love to. 

Today is Monday and I can't wait till Ethan comes over. I know that is really bad of me but I love him in a way that I never thought I would.

At 5:00 he pulls in as always and I get butterflies in my stomach. he Just walks right in and up to my room. when he walked in he looked like had been crying.

"What's wrong?" I asked

"Well tonight I got enough courage to tell Allison about Hazel and where I was going and she totally fricked out. she started to yell and say every curse word in the dictionary. Then I told her that there was nothing going on between us."

When he said that my heart sank.

"But then she said she has seen the way that I look at you and how we have been acting in the halls. Which I denied all of it, but she didn't believe me so she broke up with me."

when he said that he broke down and cried. 

"Well if you give her time she will come around."

"No I have a felling this is for good we are done." He said with a sough.

"Do you need a hug?" I asked

"Yeah that would help."

When we hugged it felt like the whole world just went away and it was just the two of us. After what felt like hours he let go and he looked me in the eyes.

"Thank you for letting me rant."

"No Problem any time you need to talk I'm here for you."

Then he leaned in I had been waiting for this moment I had butterflies in my stomach. Before we could kiss Hazel woke up from her nap.

"Oh I better go get her." he said

"Yeah I'll get stuff to change her diaper." I said

The rest of the night was just a little tense and aquered between us.

After he left I laid on my bed and imaged what would have happened if we kissed. We could have became a little family. But I couldn't get one thing out of my head. He said that there was nothing going on between us so has he been leading me on this whole time or what is he thinking.