Sidemen Oneshots

I would have been fine without you | MiniJzl

Ship: Simon x Tobi

Summary: Simon and Tobi sleep together and they try and work things out but they are terrible at talking to each other.

Setting: Simon and Jjs apartment.

Warnings: Angst. Miscommunication, swearing. Mentions of having sex while drunk. Getting outed (sort of?)

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"I messed up Jide. I messed up so fucking bad." Simon ran a hand down his face as he barged into Jjs room.

"Fam. I'm in the middle of filming." Jj complained, turning off his camera anyway. Simon was more important then any video.

"I don't care Jj I did something bad and I don't know what to do." Simon started to pace back and forth, Jj watched for a moment to see if Simon was going to tell him on his own.

"Well? What did you do?" Jj pressed after a little while of Simon just pacing.

He paused and looked up at Jj. He looked distressed before resuming his pacing.

"When I tell you, you can't hate me cause you are about to find out something about me I've never told you. Told anyone really." Simon waved his hands around anxiously as he spoke. "And you can't tell anyone that you know. Okay? Because this doesn't just affect me."

"Okay." Jj agreed easily, worry filling his chest.

"I need you to promise me Jj. This is important." Simon stopped again, to look Jj in the eye as he promised. Jj has known Simon for a very long time but he has ever seen him look this scared.

"I promise man. You're really starting to freak me out." Jj replied. Simon took a seat on Jjs bed, his leg instantly started to shake.

Jj rolled his chair over so that he was sat opposite Simon.

"I'm bi. Bisexual. As in liking men and women." Simon rushed out, he wrung his hand nervously in his lap.

"Is that the bad thing you did?" Jj asks gently, reaching out one of his hands to rest on top of Simons. "Because that's cool man, you don't have to worry that I won't accept you. I do and I'm proud of you for telling me."

Simon shakes his head, furiously blinking back the tears that were threatening to fall.

"I slept with Tobi." He whispers. He's sobbing before Jj has time to process what he said. He pulls Simon into his lap and lets him cry.

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"He said it was a mistake." Simon says almost an hour later, he's all cried out but he's still in Jj lap. "I left before he could explain."

"It's been almost two weeks and we haven't spoken about it. I don't know what to do because I really like him Jj." The way Simon looked at him when he said that made Jjs heart break for the man in his lap, he looked so sad.

"Have you tried talking to him?" Jj asked gently, gently rubbing his thumb in circles on Simons thigh that he's holding to keep him from slipping.

"Yea... Kinda... I messaged him the next day to ask if we could talk but you know Tobi he went off the grid." He tightened his grip on Jj. "I didn't get to see him until a few days later at the Sidemen shoot. He left as soon as he could so I couldn't talk to him then."

"What about after that?" Jj asked, trying to get the full story out of him. "We've done like five filming sessions since then you have to have talked to him at some point."

"When the cameras on he acts like nothing happened, when ever I try and talk to him he either ignores me or someone else is talking to him before I have the chance." Simon shrugged awkwardly because of the position they were in.