*Back to Selena's POV*
"Are you sure you want to go?" Sam asked for the third time.
"Look Sam, this isn't about Jc. I want to go have fun with you, maybe get a little drunk, and just have a good time." I sighed.
"So, in order to do that you have to wear super tight leather pants that make your ass look huge, a push up bra that quite frankly you don't need," he laughed putting cantaloupes up to his chest. "with a v-neck, and heels? Not to mention your makeup is on point and curling your hair like that makes you look sexy as fuck. Like gah-DAMN how'd you do that thing with your lips? They're huge!"
"Okay one," I laughed. "I have to look hot, it's just a me preference. And two, I already have big lips, lip liner just makes them look bigger."
"Fine. But I swear if any guy other than myself touches you tonight in any wrong way, I'll kill him." Sam crossed his arms.
"So, you're the only one allowed to touch me inappropriately?" I raised an eyebrow. His palm quickly found its way to my behind as he laughed. "Gotcha. Now can we please go?"
"Grab a jacket at least." He huffed.
"No." I shrugged, walking out into the hallway.
"You're an ass!" He laughed behind me. "Let's just take my car? You can stay the night with me."
"Sam," I thought about it for a moment, it really wasn't a bad idea. "Yeah that sounds good."
And so we were off. My heart raced, the thought of seeing Jc again put me in a panic. Yeah, he's an asshole, but I had become so invested in him that I couldn't just let go. All I could do was hope he felt the same way.
The short drive was odd, Sam's vibe felt off. Although he did reassure me several times he was okay.
Hm.
By the time we walked up, the house was already swarming with people. Girls wearing next to nothing walking around making themselves look stupid, while the boys drooled. Typical.
"Selena!" Andrea walked over. "I hear you got a job at Lulu's?"
"I did! I start tomorrow." I smiled as best as I could.
"And you're here tonight? I like your style." She laughed. "Why don't you have a drink in your hand? Kian get her a drink!"
Kian glanced over, giving me an apologetic look. Based on her stance and the half empty red solo cup in her hand, Andrea was already feeling good.
"Jungle juice." Kian grinned, handing cups to both Sam and I. The green liquid reeked of booze, who knew what was in here.
"Cheers." I turned to Sam. He laughed and humored my clink. The first sip burned, hitting my throat like a semi truck hitting a wall.
"Selena!" I could barely hear my name called over the music playing, but I definitely knew who the voice belonged to.
Both Kian and Sam exchanged glances before wheeling Andrea off to the dance floor. What great friends.
"Justin." I pressed my lips together, trying my best to smile.
"I didn't think you were coming. Wow you look great, do you want a drink?" He seemed nervous, his words nearly tumbled out of his mouth. I laughed, raising my cup to my lips. An odd chuckle escaped his body. "Right, you have one. Well I'm glad your here, but can I steal you away to talk for a while?"
I shrugged, not like I really had a choice. We walked out onto the balcony away from all the noise and chaos storming inside. I pressed the cup to my lips again, I needed all the liquid courage I could get.
"Look, I'm just going to be blunt." He let out a heavy sigh. "I'm a dick, and no matter how many times I say I'm sorry, I can't undo what happened. You just have to understand the pressure I'm constantly under. These girls, they're crazy, it's like my fans control my life. They want me with Jenn, or Lia, or anyone but you and it's driving me nuts! You're absolutely the only one I want, and I can't have you."
"Who says you can't have me other than me? Justin your life is not controlled by some pre-teen crazies. You control your own life, nobody else. These girls follow you for your content and your looks, they're not just going to walk away because you're dating me, they would've already. So get your head out of your ass." I huffed.
"You don't understand Selena." His tone was cold. My chest tightened, my heart felt like it was sinking. "I'm sorry. I just need to figure out what I want."
"You don't know what you want?" I raised my glass up again, taking a big gulp. At this point I didn't care.
"I know what I want, but it's like I have to choose between you and youtube." He shrugged.
"Oh hell no." I laughed. "You enjoy your war, but leave me out of it."
Walking away had never felt so good. How dare he. Obviously his choice, as stupid as it was, had been made.
Crazy little girls had beat me out. Cool.
****
A loud knock made my eyes shoot open. My surroundings didn't seem familiar at all.
"Jc wake up." A voice seemed to shout from the other side of the door followed by a few more knocks.
Jc?
The last thing I could remember, I had walked away from him. I had found Sam and the bar, anything after that was fuzzy.
A draft caught my attention bringing me back to reality. Pulling my foot back into the sheets must have alerted Jc he wasn't alone. His body shot up, and I could feel his eyes burning holes into my back. Thank God I hadn't been facing him.
"Sel?" He whispered. Dammit.
"Jc, what happened?" I groaned, sitting up slowly. It wasn't until the sheet dropped that I noticed my clothes strewn about his room.
"I'm so sorry." Jc seemed close to tears. He pulled a blanket over my shoulders. I felt too numb to even move. "Look, last night was a mistake, and I'm so sorry."
"Jc, what even happened?" I couldn't recollect anything.
"What was the last thing you remember?" He fumbled with his fingers.
"We were fighting, then I went and danced with Andrea. I had a few drinks, that's basically it." I wanted to cry. How could I be so stupid to do this to myself?
"I wish I could say it ended there. I mean we were all having a good time, you're smiling in everyone's pictures. Just I was stupid and I wanted to talk to you but you were being so cute and when I kissed you, you didn't pull away. We had fun, like a lot of fun. One thing led to another and the next thing I know we were here. I'm just so sorry." a loud sigh filled the room. My heart felt like it had stopped completely.
"Did we use anything?" That was all I could ask.
"I actually don't know." He whispered.
How could this happen? How could I let this happen?
Dammit Selena....
