Reality Sinks In

CHAPTER TEN

PLAYLIST TILL THE END BY JESSIE WARE

"When everything is changing
When I'm tripping up against the tide
Yes, I love and I love and I love and I want you
It's gonna be till the end of time
I wanna be right by your side
I'm gonna love you day and night
It's only you that makes it right, oh"

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Emilia's POV

The morning sun shines brightly at the tress the grass and it softly caressing my face savouring the moment of this feeling I lay down on my back in my parent's back garden. It's a Saturday morning and Joe and Martha decided to have a break this Saturday for them to rest so I went to my parent's house early in the morning.

I opened my eyes and saw the tress swaying the birds flying in the sky the clouds passing by this is what life means nothing to worry about just looking at the beautiful creation

"c'mon are you just gonna lay there all day leaving me hanging" I heard Erica say somewhere near me ugh the peace and quiet that I needed has been destroyed by this human being so help me please

"what do you want from me please I want some space right now I want to enjoy the sun" I said sitting up and glaring at her

"Hey that's no way to treat me I just want the tea and I will be on my way and also just say thank you to me I'm the reason you are miserable right now" she said smirking and lifted her eyebrow I sighed and pat the grass beside me gesturing for her to sit beside me a moment of silence hearing the birds the soft gust of wind, the sound of the trees

"you know what I just am so confused right now I don't even know what to say I don't even know if last night really happened" I started and looked at her and looked up the sky

"I know you are confused right now but its too early for you t tell how you really feel you know this is the first time you really socialize with people like really talk to people that aren't clearly the type of people that you are not talking to" she said

"I like him and I also like Mark but you know I can't like both of them and I can't keep them both under my wings, I consider them as my friends and I don't want to loose them both but" I said looking at the ground helplessly I didn't feel like this for a very long time and it's so hard for me to feel all this emotions in one go

"you know the problem is you're too scared to feel emotions you are avoiding it everytime and right now you have to face it like a woman" she said while playing at the grass

"yeah I'm scared to hurt people Erica I don't want them to feel what I felt" I said as I feel tears that is threatening to come out of my eyes I hate being emotional over such things

"you know we are here not just to feel wonderful or to feel happy but we need to feel the pain to sometimes to see if that person is worth keeping and you know your feelings are never final with things in life for me feelings are just there to guide you what step you will take next" she wrapped her arms in mine and I can't help but let a tear drop in my eyes it just feels like with all the things that is going on I'm so confused on what is happening that I don't understand life itself

"I just don't know how to tell Mark I don't really want to hurt him and I really like him I'm just so confused and I hate it" I said while breaking free from the hug and lay on my back again closing my eyes

"just tell him and I know Mark will never hate you or anything and you should also talk to that sam guy you know to set him straight" she said I felt her laying on the grass and we just lay there for a while