Reality Sinks In

CHAPTER ELEVEN

PLAYLIST THINKING OUT LOUD BY ED SHEERAN

"And darling I will be loving you 'til we're 70

And baby my heart could still fall as hard at 23

And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways

Maybe just the touch of a hand

Oh me I fall in love with you every single day

And I just wanna tell you I am"

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Emilia's POV

The weekend pass by so quickly I spent my weekened with my family and also Mark he stayed with us and I was grateful for him staying and so grateful that he didn't get mad at me about what happened between Sam and I, since that night happened I didn't have the courage to talk to him after that happened I can still remember me running away from the party ignoring Martha and Joe calling out to me and Sam running after me I cause a scene that I know I will regret forever well come to think of it, it is embarrassing. Martha and Joe was so sweet to even say that I will go to work if I feel like it but then again I really need to face the music and have to move on.

So I was sitting inside the cafe we are still not open Martha busy baking some pastries and Joe somewhere inside the building then my phone vibrated signalling a text message. I looked at it and Sam's name flash in the screen I opened it

"can we talk? Later in the coffee shop if you just want to I just want to say something"

"of course" I replied

"okay see you and thank you"

"Are you talking to him?" I heard Joe asked, I looked at him and he sat down in front of me

"yeah I was texting Sam he wanted to meet up with me later here to talk about something" I said and smiled at him they didn't really know what happened or what is the reason that I am upset that night

"You know whatever happened that night I know you will get through it just don't stress yourself out and don't scare us again like that you can always talk to us" He said and smiled at me

"I was just so confuse right now I like I don't know if I am making the right choices" I looked at Joe "Mark told me he loved me and I like him but then there is Sam I am so confuse around him and I don't even know what I am thinking what I am doing"

Is it possible to feel so vulnerable like this I feel like I don't know what I am doing if I am still the same person I feel like i'm living in a bubble wherein I'm living in a imaginative world

"you know when I was courting Martha, there is another man who is courting her that time and we have differences Martha liked that other guy but then she didn't love him like she loves me call me arrogant and all that but that is the best achievement the best thing I ever treasure up until to this day" He said and he smiled to himself looking at him I can feel and see how much he loves Martha

"how does she know who to pick" I asked

"well you got to ask her for that but all I know is that she decided to always go for who she loves" He said and got up "Chin up we got customers to serve"

I sighed and got up from the chair and set aside all my worries. Maybe I am just having infatuations with Sam ad Mark is really who I like most but why would I be so confuse right now if I know who truly won my heart. This is frustrating I can't even focus right now I will just talk to Martha later