Reality Sinks In

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

PLAYLIST ALL I WANT BY KODALINE

"All I want is nothing more

To hear you knocking at my door'Cause if I could see your face once moreI could die a happy man I'm sure But if you loved meWhy'd you leave me"?

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Emilia's POV

Voices. Once again voices woke me up as I opened my eyes adjusting to the light and then whenmy vision has adjust I look at what is happening in front of me my mom on the floor, sam clutching his face and Mark towering over sam

"What the hell is happening here?" I croaked out and squeezed my eyes shut again and open them

"honey oh both of you get out here now please, mark we will talk about this later don't you dare go anywhere else" mom said while standing up from the floor rushing towards me "I'll call Philip to deal with the both of you for the meantime"

The two men went out Sam still clutching his face and mark grumbling something under his breath, my mom held my hand and I squeezed it to assure her I was fine

"I'm fine I don't even want to know what happened really I don't want to deal with that right now, when can I get back home?" I asked then my mom put a straw on my lips and mouthed the word water I took a sip and I can say it is so refreshing

"itt depends if you are fully healed but I know maybe at the end of the week you will be fine and ready to go back home just don't stress yourself out okay take time to heal i'll just notify the nurses okay" she said I nodded and she kissed my forehead and left a few seconds later she came in with the doctor and a nurse checking my situation and gave me medication for the pain that I'm feeling

"care to tell me what relationship you have with both of the men outside?" mom said smirking a me making me groan in frustration

"mom please I don't think that is important right now" I said and sighed when she still looks at me with her brow raised I breathed out a 'fine" and tried to sit up but then failed to even carry my own weight my mom helped me to be in a comfortable position

"I don't even know whereto start" I said and my mom just smiled at me

"start from the beginning" she said and I sighed and told her everything when I am talking she is just listening nodding and remained silent until I finished telling her everything

"well do you love mark?" she asked

"I love mark as a friend and even like him in a romantic way" and then I stopped and realize what I have said, I know my feelings for Sam is only because of infatuation but Mark is different he makes me feel alive and be myself while Sam makes me a whole new person eager to discover new things

"but of course I will not interfere with how you live your life on what decisions you will make I will just be here to share a piece of advice it is your to take it or not I love you honey and I don't want you to make bad choices or even regret the choices that you will make, well I will support you no matter what you know that" she said and held my hand and kissed the back of it

"yes mom I know that, you know I am just so confused right now I know what I did before is worng it seems like i'm so broken to the point that I will never be fixed" I said sighing looking at the ceiling

"you know you don't need to be fixed because how much you want to fix yourself you can't or even how much they wanted to fix you they can't because the scars will be still visible and you can' t hide it, and those scars or even mistakes doesn't define what is held inside of you" she said and I just lay there and think about it