The Ghosts of my Past [Completed]

11. Josh

Josh

Things went on in a pretty calm way after my little interaction with Damian and Summer. I hardly spoke to Eljah, which was nice. I wanted to leave that whole thing behind. He didn't want to talk about Amber being his was a blessing but I was still scared he would randomly change his mind and claim her for some stupid reason. As I said, werewolves could get pretty possesive about that kind of things.
Blaine was around now and then to hang around with Isabell. She was awsome, she seriously made me laugh every time he came around and she rolled her eyes. She liked him for sure, but he was too (as I had warned her) Posessive and caring for her. She was an independent lady like me. And she didn't want a guy who was around al the time. But Blaine did not want to lose his 'Luna' as he kept calling her. So he tried (very hard) to keep his distance.
But getting to know easchother was unevitable so when he asked her out for diner I told her she should go. My parents weren't home, they would be at the pack house for some meeting about our rogue problem. I had the faint idea there was more going on then just Damian coming after me. From things I heard there was a conection between them and the vampires. But what? But nobody bothered telling me ofcourse. I was just happy Damian seemed to be gone... for now. My bruises were gone and having some time to myself was good. I had just got dressed to do some dancing. I would put Amber in her bouncer. She seemed to like watching me. I was just heading to the basement in my dance gear as the bell rang.
"Let's see who's there" I mumbled as I took Amber in my arms. I wouldn't let her out my sight for a moment now. I knew the house was protected day and night but my mommy instinct told me to keep my little baby close. She didn't seem to mind anyway.
I moaned when I saw Josh through the misty glass of the door. He was around to much now and then. I had the feeling he wanted to protect me as well. He kept saying I should stay in town after summer. Start a danceschool here.
"Hey" I said as I opened the door.
"Hey, I heard you were alone so I thought I could keep you company" Josh smiled and took a quik look at my outfit. I was wearing bright colored yoga pants and a short top... more of a sportsbrah. It showed my sort of flat tummy. It wasn't as flat as last year but yeah I did have a baby. And stretch marks showed on the sides but I didn't really care about that anymore. It was a part of me now. But still I was pretty happy with how I looked. My hips even got a bit wider after having a baby and that I liked!
"I was going to do some dancing... So I'll be fine by myself" I said hoping he would leave. "I can watch, I like seeing you dance" He said and just stepped inside. Great... just what I needed! I wish I could just tell him to leave. I could but he already closed the door behind him.
"How are you? You look great" He said smiling at me. "I am fine" I said walking ahead of him taking the bouncer of the kitchen table and heading to the basement.
"Let me carry that, you don't want to..."
"I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself Josh" I snapped. Okay He was trying to be nice but I hated the hovering he did the last few days.
"Okay" he said and followed me down in silence.
Downstairs I put Amber in her bouncer "You good there little lady" I said smiling kissing the tip of her nose. She reached out for my hair. "No not today honey" I said kissing her again and getting up.
"She is adorable" Josh said looking down at Amber with a Smile.
"I know" I said walking up to the stereo. The music didn't blast through the speakers as before. I didn't want to ruin my babies ears.
"I would be a good dad for her Lillith"
"Sorry?"
I turned around looking at Josh with shock on my face. What was he implying?
"I would be a good father for her. I will keep you safe, You can start a dance studio here in town... I don't care who her father is. He isn't here right? He doesn't care about his daughter. Please Lillith... we can make this work! Your my mate after all. We could restore our bond."
He was really saying what I thought he was saying. This guy just didn't understand it did he? Ofcourse these thought crossed my mind. But if he only knew Ambers father was here... and he was trying to keep her safe. I didn't know where Elijah was but he was around. He was always around.
"I am not going to stay here Josh" I said keeping in my anger. I was not going to scream in front of Amber.
"Why not! Why wouldn't you do whats best for you baby girl!" Josh did let out his anger. He came up to me. His eyes growing darker.
"And how do you know what's best for her!?" I asked feeling my heart beating faster. He had to stop this quikly because I would do something really stupid. I could handle it from my parents. I sort of understood them wanting me to stay here. But Josh... Josh was not my Mate anymore... he was nothing to me!
"I know traveling is not something for a baby. And that she needs a father... somebody to keep her safe!"
"I am keeping her safe! Josh!"
He was really pushing my buttons now and I stepped closer to him. I didn't care that he was bigger then me. probably stronger to. But no way he could tell me I couldn't keep my baby safe.
"Then why did that creep Damian show up!"
I raised my hand to hit him right in the face, but he was faster than me, took my wrist and pushed my arm down.
"You know I could tell them to keep you here... to...."
"Everything okay here?"
Hearing Elijah's voice Josh let me go and stepped back. He still looked angry and his eyes were close to black. But mine too. I wanted to kill him right now! "I think I'll go. See you later Lillith" And Josh took off passing Elijah who was coming down the stairs.
Elijah stopped halfway down the stairs looking up as josh Left. Meanwhile I tried to calm myself down. Did Josh really just threatend to keep me here? To make them keep me here! They had no right... did they?
Amber, who almost always seemed to be able to know when something was wrong had started crying.
"Oh I'm sorry baby" I said running to her and getting her out of the bouncer pulling her close to calm her down.
"You okay?"
I turned around to see Elijah standing at the botom of the stairs now. I quikly nodded but felt tears slowly coming down my cheeks. It wasn't that I was scared of Josh. Definetly not! But another guy who seemed to think that he had a claim on me. It was to much.
Elijah nodded but stayed there "Can he really do that?" I looked at ELijah. I knew he must have heard the whole conversation. He had to. If he was here to keep me safe he was going to listen to what happend in the house.
"Only if the Alpha agrees, wich I hardly doubth. So don't worry. You both consented in breaking the mate bound right? He has no claim on you"
I nodded, that Answer seemd to calm me down. "It would be different If he was Amber's father... But he isn't" I couldn't help but see anger in Elijah's eyes now. It even sounded in his voice.
"God I am so happy he Isn't" I said sitting down on the sofa in the room. Amber had calmed down and was falling asleep now so I carefully put her back in the bouncer.

I got back on my feet taking a deep breath. "Well he won't be coming in this house anymore" I said and looked at Elijah again. "Thank you"
He smiled slightly. "No problem, he... wel let's say he was out of place"
"Big time"
We both laughed.
No it was his turn to look at me up and down "I didn't know you had that" He pointed to my side where I had a tattoo. "Yea... dit this after summer" I said smiling putting my arm up. On my right side I had a whole flock of small birds tattoed going up from my side to my back.
"Stands for freedom" I said smiling. "It looks great" Elijah said stepping closer looking at the tattoo. "Freedom hu" He mumbled. "Yeah... that thing I just lost" I said frustrated looking away from him
"Hey you didn't lose your freedom" Elijah put his vingers under my chin and made me look at him.
I had forgotten how gorgeous his eyes were. And what they did to me. My stomach turned and my legs felt wobly. Did I still have feelings for him then? How was that possible?
He didn't say a word, He just looked at me.
"I will make sure Damian wont get to you! And that you can do with your life whatever you want. Amber is very lucky with you as a mother"
I didn't know what to say, I really didn't, or what to feel or do. This was weird and amazing. The first guy who wasn't telling me what to do, where to go. How to be a mother.
"Thanks, You don't..."
"Yes I do" He said softly and for a moment I thought he was going to kiss me. I didn't mind, I wanted him too.
but as he came closer to me and our lips were only maybe like an inch away... he stopped.
He took a deep breath and stepped back. "You should go and do your dance thing... I'll stay here if that's okay. In case he comes back"
I nodded, I knew it was stupid to think he would kiss me. I rememberd the night we spend together, him telling me he could never be with anybody. He had to many ghosts in his closet. Well that made two of us.

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