My head was spinning. I could hardly breathe. It felt as if my heart had stopped beating. I watched as his car drove off from me. I just stood there stunned. My head in a fog I went straight to bed and couldn’t wait for the morning to come. I think Kayla thought I was ill though.
The morning came and I found myself nervous but excited. I got dressed and checked myself in the mirror in the hall. I usually wouldn’t care about what I looked like but still found myself doing this. My chest was heavy.
I grabbed some breakfast and then headed outside. My heart skipped a beat. There he was sitting in his car waiting. I got in and flashed a smile. He smiled back at me but it wasn’t the same smile from the day before. I suddenly felt like I couldn’t breathe. Did he regret what he had said and done yesterday?
The ride to school was a quiet one. A million thoughts running through my brain. We finally pulled into a parking spot; what yesterday seemed too short of a drive today seemed like forever. I noticed he wasn’t moving to get out yet, so I stayed put. I just slightly glanced over at him.
“Skye it’s ok. I understand.”
I didn’t feel he needed to explain to me how he regretted something I had enjoyed so much. He just turned and looked at me, with a questionable look on his face.
“What do you understand?”
“About last night, I understand if you regret it.”
He just stared at the steering wheel.
“It’s not that.”
I took in a sharp breath and it was like I could finally breathe again. Now it was my turn to look confused.
“Then what is it?”
Silence. He just stared at the steering wheel.
“It’s just I’ve lived here my whole life and it’s such a small town and…no one knows I’m gay.”
It was silent again.
“Oh.”
I didn’t know what to say. I felt dumb founded. I am from the big city where being gay was no big deal or shocking news anymore. Here in this small town I suddenly realized things were much different.
“So what does that mean?”
“I don’t know what it means. I’ve never dated a guy before. Actually this is the first time I’ve ever said it out loud to someone. It’s only been in the last year or so I’ve started noticeing guys more. Now that I’ve met you I know it’s true. I’ve never been so drawn to a person like you. I find myself constantly thinking about you.”
I could have sworn I saw a little blush when he admitted this last part. It was hard to believe this new information he was telling me because of how confident he had always been.
“I really like you too, but I understand; I won’t tell anyone.”
He looked at me and thanked me with a smile. We headed into the school and his usual confidents was back. I was happy he was able to tell me his secret. I felt more connected to him, but deep down I was aching and screaming.
Before our relationship even got started it was murdered by this small town’s prejudice.
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Uncontrollable Love (Completed)
RomanceWill they come together or will small town prejudice end it before they have a chance?!?! Kelton James just moved the a small town from NYC with his family. Kelton has been in the closet for years. With his twin sister at his side he is ready to tak...
