Indifference | MiShu

Part V

Two more days have passed, I'm getting along well with Soyeon, while Yuqi's very down-to-earth personality enables me to feel comfortable whenever I'm with her, but she's barely home. I heard from Soyeon that Yuqi loves studying and that she's probably at the school's library most of the time she's missing. I'm pretty sure she's really smart as to how she immediately masters our language despite being a foreigner, and adapt to our culture.

Although I would love to be friends with Minnie, my same-age dorm mate, we rarely talk to each other. It was my fault, I was so shy to talk to anybody.

I heard that Minnie's a foreigner as well and have been living and studying in Korea for more than four years, I really thought she's so pretty when I first saw her, and her model vibe is really strong. So this morning, when I was left alone with her, I mustered up my courage and initiated a small talk between us. I was sitting on the floor, eating some crispy rolls, and asked her to share it with me. She politely refused my offer and briskly walk back to our room after getting some water from the kitchen.

You know, I really wanna get close to all of them, but I'm starting to pity myself because I was always alone in the house, and when they do come late in the afternoon, I was already sleeping.

I felt like I was a ghost in here. I would wake up with no one to share a "good morning" with, I would eat alone during lunch, and those few times we are together in the living room, even though I know they're trying their best to include me, I would always felt so left out in the conversations.

Friday morning. I already expected them to be gone when I went out to the the kitchen and to the living room. What I didn't expect is the bowl of warm stir-fried vegetables and pork with rice, and a note that says, "Hey! Let's eat together next time! ;)" -M

I was so touched and maybe teared up a little with this little gesture of care from Minnie, based on the initial left at the note. I'm so lucky, I met such a good person. Before I taste the dish that Minnie made, I took a picture of it for some remembrance, feeling so touched and grateful.

I'm definitely gonna thank her later about this.

***

I've been looking forward for Minnie to come home as I was planning to talk to her about the food this morning. The other four were here and we already ate our dinner so we're just chilling in the living room, I was wondering why no one seems to mind that one of us is not home yet so I turned to ask Soyeon.

"Minnie-unnie? Well, she's probably on her way to Thailand right now. She'll be back on Sunday night, I guess. Why?" Soyeon faced me so we can talk better.

"Nothing. I was just wondering."

She just nods in response and returns her attention to the television.

"Ah, right! Miyeon-unnie came from YG Univ, did you guys know?"

"Isn't that where Blackpink-sunbae goes?" Soojin asks, suddenly interested in our topic.

"Right, right... That famous sunbae group who debuted last-last year? Yeah, I remember!" Yuqi nods as if recalling, she stood up a few seconds later and danced to one of their songs. "Shuhua-yah! Let's dance, come on!"

"No, no, I'm fine. Go ahead and dance." Shuhua rejects her nonchalantly, scrolling through her phone.

I suddenly felt a sting in my heart as a painful memory makes its way at the top of my head, and I was reminded of my disappointment two years ago. Blackpink. I was hoping to be a part of that group before I leave YGU. After they announced the final line-up of the members, I became so frustrated at myself that I almost abandon my dream of becoming an idol. That is one of the reasons why, after finishing the first semester, I changed school.

I'm not blaming YGU for not choosing me, I'm blaming myself. Maybe I'm not ready to debut yet, or maybe it's not my destiny to debut as an idol at all, but when I saw a flyer of CUBE just outside the vocal academy, I once again found some hope, so I was willing to take a leap of faith. It's now or never. And it just so happen that my parents chose CUBE as well to be my new school. It's the works of some great force up above, I guess.

"Then, does unnie knows any of the Blackpink members?" Soojin asked.

"Of course! I'm sure she does, right?" Yuqi stopped dancing around, thank goodness, she's starting to make me dizzy.

"Y-Yeah.. I'm friends with them, actually."

"Woah! Really?!" Shuhua, who normally wouldn't even bat an eye on my direction, spoke to me for the first time.

That made me smile a little.

"Yeah. We were in the same class as well before I changed school."

"Yah! Then why did you transfer here?!" I was surprised by Yuqi's loud yell that I almost drop my half-way empty mug of coffee.

"Yuqi-ah, quiet down, will you? My eardrums are about to burst." Yuqi closed her mouth immediately at Soyeon's complain.

Soojin ignores the two like she usually does whenever the two tease each other, "So, why did unnie left YGU?"

Should I be honest with them? But we've just met... Oh come on, Miyeon. If you want them to trust you, then tell them the truth, idiot!!

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I opened them and see their expectant faces, "I used to train with them, actually. I thought I'm gonna debut under the name of Blackpink, but I never did..." I suppress a tear that's about to fall. "After they announced the four members, I was so deeply disappointed and frustrated with myself that I almost quit being a trainee."

My tears finally drop. At first the girls hesitated, but they finally came to comfort me. At least, three of them did. I kinda expected Shuhua to just look at me from where she's sitting, and I was right.

"It's okay, unnie. What's important is that you didn't give up." Soyeon said as she pats my shoulder.

"Y-Yeah. I almost, almost did. I forced my self to just finish the first semester and then I'm out of that school. I-I enrolled at this vocal academy after, to try and improve myself. I thought I'm gonna graduate at that academy, you know? But it's really far from our house, so my parents searched for a college with dorms, and they found CUBE. And now I'm here, hoping to continue my dreams."

"CUBE is lucky to have you, unnie. I'm sure of that." Soojin smiles at me, all the while wiping my tears away.

"What do you mean by that, Soojin-unnie? You must mean that CUBE is lucky to have all of us. Especially, me." Yuqi said and we all laughed. Yes, even Shuhua.

Soojin looked so done with Yuqi's antics, "Yeah, yeah, whatever you said, Song Yuqi."