Dear Crush [Dear Series Book 01]

CHAPTER XXXII: Truth

Edwin's POINT OF VIEW

Sinundan ko si Xandrie noong mag walk out siya. Mas gumugulo ang lahat lalo na at nandito si Denisse. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pakay niya at bakit siya nandito pero wala sa kaniya ngayon ang atensyon ko.

"Xandrie please talk to me" I pleaded.

Nilingon naman niya. "What do you want? Nandiyan na si Denisse. Siya na lang kausapin mo."

"I'm bothered of what Caleus told us earlier. Is it true?" Kinakabahan kong tanong sa kaniya.

Her gaze sharpened but I still remained my calmness. May parte sa akin na umaasang sana nga ay siya si Arcane. Pero may parte din na nasasaktan ako kasi bakit niya nilihim?

"Caleus is just drunk kaya kung ano anong nasasabi niya" she reasoned out but I won't buy that.

"Just for once Xandrie! Maging totoo ka naman!" Frustrated kong sigaw sa kaniya.

Galit na tiningnan niya ako. "You want the truth!?"

"Yes! I want the truth so be true to me!" I shouted back.

Kanina ay sila ni Caleus ang nagsisigawan at ako ang umaawat. Ngayon naman ay heto kami at parehas nagtatalo sa mataas na boses.

Malakas na nagbuga siya ng hangin.

"It's black envelope with cream colored scented paper in it." Biglang sabi niya habang nakatungo kaya natigilan ako.

"Hi Edwin,
I am so much delight whenever I see you. I'm writing this letter because I really admire you and I wanted to close our gap but I can't. You're too hard yo reach. Keep safe and I'm contented of admiring you from afar.

Love,
Arcane"

Natigilan ako habang nakatingin sa kaniya. Yon yung nakasulat sa unang binigay ni Arcane sa akin. Hindi ako pwedeng nagkamali.

She smiled sadly at me. "The silver bracelet na may name tag mo. There's an attached poem with that."

I hold my breathe when she started reciting the poem.

"EDWIN is your name, my crush.
Don't ever think that I'm on rush
While looking you with affection
I always see you as my inspiration
Not as if I am seeking for rejection

ZANDER is your second name, right?
And it makes me want to hug you tight
Not until you tell me we are now mutual
Deluding me as if we really now accrual
Even this feelings seems like a survival
Risking this feelings for you my rival

CALYX as your last word of your first
Always remember not to easily burst
Life will always be tough but Im here
Yelling your name even if its whisper
Xylographic your name so dont tear"

Tears slowly roll down to my cheeks. Hindi ko alam na magiging ganito ka-emotional ang pyesang iyon kapag siya mismo ang bumanggit ng mga linyang iyon. Bakit hindi ko man lang binigyang pansin ang bawat titik ng tulang iyon? Bakit napakainsensitive ko?

Pinigil niya ang sariling mapahikbi pero hindi siya nagtagumpay. Dinig na dinig ko ang impit niyang paghikbi na puno ng pighati.

"Dear Edwin,

I don't have courage to shown up myself. I am glad enough that you are happy but admiring you from afar breaks me apart. I wish I am brave enough to tell you what I really feel. I like you.