Beautiful Art

EPILOGUE

Brian Mandeville's POV

"I love you," I read the note from the lunch she gave to me. I was looking at it for a moment and trying to sink in what did just came out from her.

I've hurt her so much which I deplored the most. I know I will hurt her but still I did. I utter the words that will cost so much bruise in her. Bruise that can never be healed. I utter the words that I thought will be good enough for the both of us but it turned out not. I just fall for him more and deeper by everynight I am missing her.

The four corners of my condo become my only wold that I lived in. I never get out of it just for redundancy. My life became worst than I expected the time I know I will be separated from her. I wished everyday to get back from her but everytime I tried to do, I kept on messing up.

"You want me to leave? Fine. I didn't love you tho."

Even me was also shocked from the words I utter. I want to take it back but in just a second thought, I manifested to stand for it. I want to lessen her burden but it turns out it just became worst.

"Remember Georgina? I just used you to moved on to her. Thanks to you and I really did." I even used that excuse. I even really hold onto it by grabbing a girl that I know Timothy sent just take make Anna and I splitted.

The time that Anna would have a talked to me, the girl that Timothy sent suddenly came out of nowhere. I was not actually with her. I just want to show it to Anna that I have already another one. Which again... I regreted the most.

For the another time around, Anna tried to reached out for me. And that was the day I told him the words I never expected would be the most nightmare she would have. Of all the words I uttered, It was the statement that she never forget about. And it kills me how she opened up to me on how she got hurt by just those word came out from me.

"Getting back to me is no longer the answer and it kills me inside, Brian. You didn't know how much I overthink with just those words of yours," she broke down in front of me.

And from that, I was deceived by myself that is worth to be. I did everything just to bring her back. I became consistent and never take back the words I vowed to myself... to be with her again.

The catastrophe made me realized... only her can make me smile after having bad times. She's my happy place. And she will always be the reason why I am smiling all over gain.

And now, I finally retrieved the woman I always dreamt about. I maybe can't retrieve my profession but at least I regain the woman could make me smile.

"I saw them in deep blue," she told me. She's pertaining to Timothy and his wife.

We're in the living room inside my condominium; sharing moments and talking about the chaotic tide we have been ran to. It was actually pleasing talking about those stuffs. Now I know, we should also talk about bad things and not just good things.

"You want to do something about it?" I whispered. Specifically, I was recumbent on the couch while she's leaning on my chest, sitting between my legs. I was caressing her head.

"As if I have something to do just to make them feel better. I was healing, Brian. I'm still. Kung yung satin nahirapan na'ko, ano pa kaya yung problema ng mag asawa." She looked up on me. I just plastered a smile and kiss the top of his head.

Bringin up the concept of mag asawa did not pass by me and think of the furture that is waiting for us. I couldn't help but to smile from that thought. I couldn't wait any longer to take risk and responsibility of being a husband for her. I couldn't wait to sacrifice everything I have if there's a lifetime being with her and for our future kids that are ahead for us.

"Let's get married," I said without a hint of question in my voice.

If she's still healing, I am wiling to wait 'till after forever. I have already give up a lot of things for her. And I wouldn't hesitate to do it more and over again.

Because from the day I was swayed by her, my life became beautiful.

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