Feelings or whatever... (Bakugo x reader)

S2~chapter 19~ "An epiphany"

Y/N'S POV

I watched as Katsuki and Kirishima stood on opposite ends of the arena being introduced by present mic. I could tell by the look on his face that Katsuki was already upset, hopefully he wouldn't take his anger out on Kirishima during this match. But...I had a good feeling that was exactly what he was going to do.

"START!" Present mic cheered, and Katsuki immediately let off an explosion towards Kirishima.

when the smoke cleared Kirishima was completely unphased, his hardening quirk was really the perfect defense against Katsuki's explosions. Kirishima lunged at Katsuki attempting to punch him, but Katsuki avoided all of them. He was so agile, but at the moment I was still upset with him so that would only be an internal compliment.

I crossed my arms waiting for the fight to end...I really picked up some odd habits from Mina. Maybe that wasn't such a bad thing though, I've been getting treated off by everyone this whole time which according to her isn't always a good thing. Mina was pushy but she did give some good advice from time to time.

"BAKUGO WINS!!" The jarring scream of present mic snapped me back to reality.

At least Kirishima wasn't injured too badly, I made eye contact with Katsuki who's triumphant smirk faded once I looked at him. I quickly turned away and started walking out fo the stands, not really sure where I was going but felt the urge to leave.

I decided to check on Kirishima, I'm sure he's a good sport about losing but it's still frustrating. Entering recovery girls room I saw him sitting up looking pretty calm, I smiled and he looked up at me when I entered.

"Oh hey y/n!" He grinned.

"You did well kiri, but I guess Katsuki is really set on winning" I sighed.

"Yeah,Thanks for checking up on me" he looked down at his hands in his lap and I took a seat next to his bed.

"Oh it's nothing, just wanted to see how you were doing" I laughed a little, but he stayed oddly quiet.

I frowned, this wasn't normal. He was deep in thought which is something I'd never seen from kirishima, he was usually outgoing and talkative but he looked sort of upset.

"Listen y/n, I like you" he sighed.

"Huh?"

"I like you romantically" he looked over and my eyes widened in surprise.

"Oh..well Kiri I-"

"No I know. Im not telling you because I expect you to break up with bakugo for me, but I haven't been treating this right" he looked sadly at me, was this a confession or an apology?

"What do you mean" I muttered.

"I mean you and Bakugo obviously really care about each other, so who am I to get in the way of that..it's not manly. I'm really sorry I've been acting that way, you've just been really sweet all this time and I feel like everyone's been taking advantage. I don't want to be that guy, I don't want to hurt you or Bakugo, but you two have got to fix whatever is going on. So just..talk to him" he ranted and I kept my eyes in my lap thinking about what he said.

"People are taking advantage of me.." I hummed.

"Oh no, uhh I didn't mean to sound harsh or make you feel upset. Are you okay?" He waved his hands in front of him frantically.

"I'm okay Kiri! Thanks for letting me know, you're a great friend not only to me but also to Bakugo even if he does act grumpy and doesn't want to admit it" I laughed and hugged him.

"Good luck out there" he said his last goodbye as I left the room.

People are taking advantage of me. Everyone in class 1a is my friend, so why would they? They're all good people, we're training to be heroes, and heroes protect and help others. So why would anyone be taking advantage of me? Izuku did kiss me suddenly, and kaminari does make me a little uncomfortable now and then, and maybe the girls are a little pushy, but that didn't make them bad did it?

While in mid thought I looked up and saw katsuki at the end of the hall walking over to me. I furrowed my eyebrows a little as he approached waiting to hear what he had to say, but instead he wrapped me in a hug. I don't want this...

"Katsuki can you let go of me please" I mumbled and he slowly released me with a confused look on his face.

"Are you taking advantage of me?" I asked and he looked back at me as if he was offended by my question.

"Where the hell did you pull that shit from? Of course I'm not taking advantage of you" his voice was calmer than it usually was.

"Then tell me why you're upset with me, and tell me what you really want to say instead of just hugging me" I deadpanned.

"I was upset because you keep investing everything you have into people that don't even matter. Don't I matter to you? You can't expect me to just sit back and let you fall into the arms of every shitty guy in our class!" He said raising his voice.

The way he was speaking to me felt all too familiar, and a sudden sinking feeling started to appear in the pit of my stomach.

"Do you think that they're taking advantage of me?" I asked, and he rolled his eyes.

"If you want the fucking truth, then yes! They fucking are, and you would've seen that if you'd open your eyes and stop trusting everyone who's 'nice' to you. You've been acting so dense and I know that's who you are, but not everyone is a good person despite your fucked up ideologies. You act as if you were coddled all your life and was never exposed to the outside world, people are bad and you can't trust just anyone who smiles at you!" he yelled and I flinched a little as his harsh tone.

"You sound exactly like my mom" I said my face twisting in anger.

Katsuki looked just as angry as I was, his fists were tightly clenched. I didn't want to argue with him, all I wanted was an apology or anything at all instead of an empty hug or kiss.

"Don't you dare y/n, I'm trying to help your dumbass finally realize that you've been letting everyone walk all over you because I fucking care about you" he hissed.

"You're being selfish! You're being like her, just wanting me to comply to everything you tell me. And then you get mad at me, and you don't even tell me why or apologize. It hurts!" I felt tears well up in my eyes but I resisted the urge to blink scared to let them fall.

"Y/N ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO WHAT IM TRYING TO TELL YOU? IM TRYING TO STOP EVERYONE FROM TAKING ADVANTAGE OF YOU, IM NOT FUCKING SELFISH" he yelled.

"IF YOU REALLY WANT TO HELP THEN JUST TALK TO ME INSTEAD OF PUSHING ME AWAY AND THEN EXPECTING ME TO ACCEPT YOUR HUG AS AN APOLOGY" I reported shutting my eyes, no longer caring about crying in front of him.

"GOD DAMNIT I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO THAT OKAY? I CANT DO...WORDS" he shouted and grabbed my wrist which I tried to pull away.

"STOP LET GO YOU BUTT FACE" I screamed and he released my wrist.

"Butt face?" He snorted and I looked up at him.

He burst into laughter and I stood angrily in front of him. This is what everyone does, they laugh at me like I'm a little kid, I've had enough. How could I not realize this sooner.

"WOULD YOU STOP LAUGHING" I yelled and his laughter died down.

"I don't want to talk anymore. I need space" I huffed and wiped my tears.

"What?" He asked confused.

"I want some space I said!" I frowned and walked away hastily.

I didn't want to look back at him, I feel like if I did I would go back and apologize so I kept walking. A part of me wanted him to come after me and give me a real apology, but I knew that wasn't going to happen. His laugh echoed in my head as I was walking, it made fueled my anger with each step. Katsuki laughed at me just like he had years ago.