Encounter (Onze Series #1)

17

"Yan! Sabi ko naman sayong igo-ghost ka nun. Thomasian yun eh!"

Mas lalo akong umiyak dahil sa sinabi ni Claire. "Wala kang natutulong!" I hissed. Imbes kasi na pakalmahin niya ako, ang dami pa niyang sinasabi. Kesyo sawa na daw si Jared, na-ghost daw ako ni Jared, ang weirdo ko daw, and such!

"Lord naman kasi! Bakit four months lang ang kontrata ni Valerie at Jared? Hindi man lang sila umabot ng pasko!" Natatawang sambit ni Claire, I heard others laughed so I did smiled, a little.

"Bwiset ka talaga Claire." Narinig kong bulong ni Lorr na nasa tabi ko. Everyone is here, my friends, except for the Young's. They all look like they were mourning for me because someone so dear to me, died.

I didn't want them to be here though. I just want Claire to know what happened, pero yung bunganga niya walang filter at nasabi sa lahat. Warren is not here, may practice sila, but he'll be here daw after.

I've been crying and drinking since Friday. I didn't even eat. After two days,  Claire went home, she saw me lying on my bed and was covered a blanket. She got so worried when she saw me in that state. I told her afterwards about what happened. And hours after, all my friend came to the condo, holding bottles liquors on their hands.

I missed him so bad!

"Why.. why does he have to leave without even saying anything?!" Tanong ko sa kanila at tumungga sa basong may beer.

"Baka may purpose." Maikling sagot ni Khylie, the others also agreed.

"Pano kung.. kung hindi na siya bumalik?" My voice cracked and started sobbing again.

Fuck my tears, why won't they stop from falling?! I hate it! I wasn't like this when I was ghosted by Gelo! Yes, I cried, but only for a day! I got immediately moved on from him!

Pero si Jared... Putangina! Hindi ata ako makaka-move on sa kanya 'e! Mahal na mahal ko siya!

"Tangina, d'yan ka magaling Valerie e. Kung ano-anong iniisip mo, kaya ka nasasaktan." Humarap naman ako kay Zoe, busy caressing my back.

"He fucking promised! He promised that he won't ghost me! I... I trusted him.." I yelled in between sobs.

And I was so dumb to believe him.

I'm in so much pain. Hindi ko alam ang reason kung bakit siya umalis, walang nagsasabi saakin. The pain that I'm feeling right now was very different from what I've felt three years ago. It doubled, or even tripled!

"Masakit..." I said. I had to cover my face so they could not see me crying this hard.

Nakita ko silang tumango-tango. I really love how my friends agrees to everything that I say. They would always listen to my rants. I am so lucky to have these ten people around me and just supports me to everything that I want. Kahit na minsan mali 'yon. Alam naman kasi nilang alam ko na kung anong dapat kong gawin sa  buhay.

My family, they still don't know. I have no plans of telling them, but for sure my friends, especially Claire, will.

"Babalik 'yon, Val." Ian said to cheer me up, trying to ease the pain that I'm feeling right now.

Sana nga bumalik siya. 

"Mas masasaktan ka kung hindi siya babalik." I heard Asha said.