Succumbing To The Darkness Within (Previously The Gift)

Chapter 30

~Mara's P.O.V~

Why couldn't I be normal? Well... I was but...

It has been even a good month yet, since I shifted and my life has turned upside down.

Staring up at the blank cream ceiling above me while listening to music, I think. I think about what has been happening to me.

Why me?

What did I do? Am I a bad person?

Why would Luna Emily do this?

Why would someone kill her mate?

Has Salem found his sister yet? And would he be mad at me for not being able to find her yet?

How haven't I met this 'evil' that lives in me as yet?

Each question, each have a different topic, run through my head nonstop.The music calms my nerves. Cassandra informs me that I have to keep calm and keep my emotions in check. Since Fire, if not controlled properly, can be triggered.

I wouldn't want to burn down the house now do I?

I close my eyes tight, hoping if when I open them back this would be a dream but no that didn't happen. No matter how hard I've tried, this is all real. This is what faith chose for me and I have to face it.

With the music blasting in my ears, blocking out every outside sounds, I imagine what my life would have been like if I wasn't gifted.

I would probably talking to my mom, laughing and probably watching a movie, enjoying each other's company. I sigh at the thought.

I look over to the clock and it's now 11:25 p.m. I can't sleep because of the constant sounds coming from Chloe's room. How could they do that at a time like this? This is one of the reason for the music.

I knew I would one day regret having my room beside hers. I'm fatigued. My brain doesn't feel like it's functioning at all.

But the thing is that, if I close my eyes or when I close my eyes, I see things, horrible things.

I see scenarios of my friends dying before my eyes and I can't do anything to stop it from happening. These images jolt me out of my sleep every time, sweating and breathing heavily even one time, screaming. This happened 4 times in the pass 2 hours and I just gave up on sleeping.

The time when I woke up screaming, I dreamt that Emily killed Dylan and Chloe. She broke Chloe's neck with a flick of her wrist and did the same with Dylan while I was forced to watch in horror. When I woke up everyone was in my room looking at me, staring at me with a worried expression. After some convincing, they finally left.

But the truth is, I was trying to convince myself as well. Am I alright?

"What do these dreams mean?" I ask Caroline in a desperate need for answers.

"I don't know what they are or why your dreaming them. Maybe their just nightmares."

"Nightmares that have been happening for the pass two days! This has to stop."

With that I push myself off my bed and lock my room door. I mind link everyone to inform them not to wake me up no matter what.

I am a official member of the Crescent Moon Pack. They thought that it would be better if I was apart of the pack, so I could mind link.

I place myself back on the bed and got comfortable.

"What ever you do don't wake me up. I wanna see how this dream ends." I tell Caroline.

And with that I drift off into sleep.

~Salem's P.O.V~

It's been days, why hasn't she done anything yet? Is she planning for something? What is she up to? And why isn't she make me see my sister?

If she was here, she could've shown me her. But no, the Luna keeps changing the subject when I bring it up.

Jared has been acting a bit secretive and I think I'm the only one who notices. What's he up to?

If my sister is out there somewhere, I hope she finds her way to Mara cause I know she will help her. Mara has a pure heart, one of a true White Wolf.

Amber, where ever you are, please forgive me. I sorry that I couldn't protect you. Please be safe. Please be alive and please be careful.

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