pained. (Jason McCann)

woman

As she mistakes my name I see the light come around
And strange as it seems I'm bursting at the seams
Oh I've got a woman now

Her wallet photos don't turn me on
I feel her hand come around
And her stone-wash denim jeans are darker than they seemed
Oh I've got a woman now

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Sunday 10:56pm

Jackie's POV

I was home alone.

It was so quiet.

My phone vibrated indicating that I got a text.

It was from Jason.

-You left your sweater here. I can't come to you're house today. So can you just pick it up tomorrow.

To Jason

-Sure.

Monday 3:57 pm

I was walking to Jason's to pick up my sweater.

When I got there I saw him walking out of his house with a skateboard on one hand and my sweater on the other one.

"I was just about to go to your house cause i thought you weren't gonna come." He explained.

"Well I'm here." I smiled.

He handed me my sweater.

"Alright. Well it's almost four. It's still early. Why don't we go to the park?" Jason asked.

I nodded with and huge smile on my face.

I probably looked like an idiot.

4:11pm

We finally got to the park. Our walk there was silent. But it was nice. I liked it.

"Jackie, um really need to tell you something." He stuttered.

I nodded for him to continue.

"My life was a wreck until I met you. I would have these terrible nightmares. I was always alone. So i every night I would drink all my pain away. Ever since my parents died my life went downhill. I didn't even attend their funeral because of how depressed I was. I started this gang because I wanted to find out who killed my parents. Nothing happened. It made everything worse. But then I met my old girlfriend. I gave her everything. I loved her so much. She absolutely perfect. But then I realized that she wasn't right for me. I was blinded by how controlling she was. She hurt me a lot. She took a lot from me. She cheated on me a couple months ago. I was so tired of everybody controlling me, hurting me, and tricking me into believing that they love me. I wanted to die so badly. I tried to kill myself. I hated my life. I hated everybody. I hated myself. Then, something beautiful happened, I met you. The most amazing person in the world. You made me so happy. And I love you. I love you so much. You changed everything. You got me from a depressed fuck to a happy fuck. You fixed up my fucked up, confusing life. You're beautiful. I don't think I ever met anyone who understood me so much. We have so much in common. Were both fucked up. We both have fucked up lives. Were both pained. Were both broken. I'm still looking around for I'm other piece."

He paused for a couple seconds before saying.
"And I think that piece might be you."

He smiled.

I smiled back.

I felt tears about to fall from my eyes.

We looked into each other's eyes.

We both started to lean in.

Then, our lips touched.

It felt amazing.

It felt like sparks and fireworks lighting up around us.

I loved it.

His arms wrapped around my small waist, pulling me closer to his body and deepening the kiss.

"I love you."

"I love you too"

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I love it here. I wish I could pause my life here and have you in my arms forever.