pained. (Jason McCann)

twenty two

the next chapters are now gonna have the rest of the characters point of view. So it's not just Jason's and Jackie's point of view anymore.

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Ryan's POV

I hurt her. God fucking dammit.

"You dumb idiot." I said to my self and hit myself in the head.

"Are you okay?" Chaz asked.

No one knew about me and Alicia. I didn't want them to know.

"I fucked up something."

"Is this about that Alicia chick?"

How did he know?

"How do you know about her?"

"You told me yesterday when you were pissed."

"I...what the fuck do i do?"

"Try to talk to her."

"I tried already. So many times."

"Don't call her. Go to her and talk to her in person. It's the most genuine way. And look her in the eyes when you apologize."

"I'll try." I sighed and got up.

"You're going now?" Chaz asked.

I nodded and jogged down stairs. I ran to my car and hopped in.

And I began driving to her house. When i arrived, I made sure her car was there, it was.

I sat there for a couple minutes thinking about what to say. What if I say something wrong? What do I do?

"How could you?!" She screamed.

"I didn't mean it. It was uncalled for, I was completely drunk. It didn't mean anything! It was just sex!"

"Just sex! You cheated on me! You had sex with someone else!"

"I love you.....You know I do."

"If you did, why would you do this to me?"

"You're fucking dumb if you think I'll forgive you for this!" She added.

"Please don't leave me!"

"Go fuck yourself!" She walked away and left me.

"Fuck!" I was thinking about it again.

I got out of the car and walked to her door. I stood in front of it. I knocked on it lightly.

"I'm coming!" I heard her say.

I missed her voice. I heard the door unlocked.

"Who is it......" She looked at me.

"What do you want?" She snapped.

"I lo-"

"You don't."

"Please forgive me. I love you and only you. That girl back there, she didn't mean anything to me. You
mean the world to me. Please! I love you. I love you so much. I'm a wreck. I've been in my room for days thinking about how dumb I was."

"Alicia who's at the door?" I heard an unfamiliar voice say.

"A dumb mistake." She said.

I saw a guy come up behind her and kiss her cheek. It felt like someone stabbed my heart. I can't believe I was replaced so quickly.

"She's taken, fuck off." He told her.

"Replaced? Already?" I asked.

I turned around and walked away. I went to my car and turned it on before speeding off.

"Stupid prick."