pained. (Jason McCann)

fallingforyou

I'll take you one day at a time,
Soon you will be mine,
Oh but I want you now (I want you now)
When the smoke is in your eyes,
You look so alive,
Do you fancy sitting down with me? Maybe?

You're all I need
According to your heart,
My place is not deliberate,
Feeling of your arms
I don't wanna be your friend,
I wanna kiss your neck

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Friday 11:32pm

Jackie's POV ( again )

"JACKIE!!!" James yelled.

I came home late again.

"I'm sorry okay! I was at the library study and it was far. And I had to walk home!" I snapped.

He smirked and grabbed my arm. He dragged me to his room.

He shoved me on his bed.

"James please I didn't mean it." I cried.

He chuckled and punched my jaw.

"I'm getting bored of just punching you." He smirked slyly.

He ripped off my shirt. He looked at my bra.

"Take.It.off." He demanded.

I swallowed, slowly unclasped it and removed it.

He ripped off the rest of my clothes. And took his off.

"Please don't do this." I begged.

He smirked as tears began to pour out of my eyes.

Thirty Minutes Later.

I laid there on the bed.

I hate myself. Why does this have to happen? Am I not good enough? Do people hate me this much?

I looked to my right. James was fast asleep. I slowly got out of the bed and grabbed my clothes. I put them on. When I was finished I walked towards the door.

Before I could touch the knob I heard james's voice.

"Where do you think you're going?" I heard him say.

I felt his rough arms pull me. He pushed me against the wall. He slapped me couple times. He punched me hard on the jaw. I fell to the floor. He kicked my stomach. I found the strength to get up. I pushed him away from me and ran to the door.

I quickly opened it and sprinted to the front door.

I opened it and saw Jason walking on the street. He looked at me with wide eyes.

I ran to him. He wrapped his arms around me.

"Shit. He's coming." I whispered to him.

"Who?"

"My brother."

"We gotta run then he's right there." Jason said while pulling my arm and running away.

Five Minutes Later.

We lost him.

"That's my house over there." Jason spoke..

We ran to it.

"Shit. Shit. Shit. He's over there." Jason cursed.

"Get in. Get in. Hurry!" He whispered-yelled at me.

He unlocked the door. I jumped inside and Jason following behind me.

"Holy shit." Jason huffed.

"Ummm. Jason's who's this?" I heard someone say.

"Oh umm. Thats Jackie. A friend." Jason replied.

"What happened to her?" The guy asked.

"I'll explain later, Ryan. I don't know yet either." He told him.

Ryan smiled at me and left somewhere upstairs.

Jason's POV

"Obviously your brother did this." I told her.

"Yeah." She sighed.

"What else did he do?" I asked.

"Jason, I don't wanna talk ab-"

"No! I want to what else he did to you!" I yelled.

"He raped me. It's not a b-"

"What do you mean it's not a big deal! You have to tell the police!"

"Jason, if I do I'll lose my home." She cried.

She broke down into tears. I pulled her fragile body closer to me.

"Are you okay?" I ask while putting her chest on my chest.

She shook her head. I felt something on my chest. I looked down. She was crying.

"It's okay." I said.

"I'm here." I added.

"You're so nice to me. Why?" She asked.

"Because you're nice to me" I explained.

"Okay." She sighed.

"I'm sorry you have to see me like this." She continued.

"I don't care. You're beautiful no matter what." I smiled.

She looked up at me.

"Jason! He got away stupid asshole forgot to pay!" I heard Alex yell causing Jackie to jump.

"Alex, I know he did now stop."I hissed at him.

He looked at Jackie.

"Is she okay?" He asked.

"Jason. I found he first aid kit." Ryan said while handing me it.

I nodded as they sat down on he couch across from us.

Jackie's POV

"Thanks." I said to them as Jason put the first aid kit on the table.

"No problem." He winked at me causing me to blushed.

"What now?" Ryan asked.

"I don't know." Jason said.

"How about we go to sleep? I'm fucking tired." Alex suggested.

"Yes!" Ryan yelled while getting up.

"Ryan. Seriously you have a problem. You yell at the time." Jason snapped.

"Thanks! Good night!!" Ryan exclaimed.

Jason put up his middle finger at him. Ryan gave him an annoyed look and walked to his room.

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Saturday 12:37

"Alright. I'm gonna go. Good night." Jason said.

"Wait where are you sleeping?" I ask him.

"The couch." He replied.

"Can you just stay here with me?"

"Do you want me to?"

"Yes. This is your room. And I don't feel that safe alone in here." I sighed.

"Okay."

Two Hours Later.

I woke up randomly. I don't know why.

I look next to me and saw Jason. He was sleeping.

I smiled to myself, he looked so cute.

Now I couldn't deny it. I like him. He's so nice to me. His personality is amazing. He's perfect. The first guy I met that didn't care about how I looked.

His laugh is like music to my ears. I think I'm in love. Yeah I am no doubt that my falling for him.

I turned to him.

"I think I'm fallingforyou." I whispered to him as if he could hear me.

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How would you know? You're me. We're the same person. You are me and I am you.