Under The Twilight Sky (KOV #3)

Denial

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Aviery Louisse Cortez

Ang nang yaring iyon ay tila isang panaginip na hindi makatotohanan, hindi ako makapaniwala ngunit kung totoo iyon ay parang gusto ko nalang maulit ulit kahit isang beses pa. Gusto ko lang namang marinig ang salitang mahal ako ni Mino bilang babae, hindi bilang kaibigan subalit alam ko namang malabo iyon dahil kay Margaret. Ayoko rin naman maka gulo, isa pa gusto ko ng mag move on sa kaniya kahit alam kong imposible. My life is a mess, messier than my own room but I know how to clean though so I don't have to worry about it.

I wished Mino knew what I feel about him but would it be any different if he noticed my hidden feelings for him? May mag iiba ba kung malalaman niya ang tunay na nilalaman ng puso ko?? Sobrang dilim ng langit ko sa tuwing makikita ko siyang kasama yung girlfriend niyang kulang sa aruga, for the record his girl is pretty much dumb and nothing but a trash mannerless bitch. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit siya kukuha ng ganong klase ng babae, he's handsome, tall, mabait, matalino, sweet, at higit sa lahat ay mapag mahal pero mapag biro nga lang though it's nice to hang out with Mino.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit kay Mr. Half royal blood ako nainlove ng ganito, nagka gusto na ako sa iba pero eto ang pinaka malalamang nangyari saakin. He's my freaking childhood friend and my best friend, I'm special to him but not like more than friends. Sometimes he treats me like his sister, sometimes friend or sometimes more than but hanggang doon lang talaga kaming dalawa ni Mino. Why is life so unfair? Why do I still feel like a big blank space outside the universe?? A floating dust, a fallen leaf, a waste of space. That's how I feel all the time though I'm never alone cause again my 'Best Friend' was always there to annoy the shit out of me.

Anyway why am I talking to myself though? It feels like I'm lying down on a soft mattress with a warm cozy blanket while the aircon temperature is just right. But where the hell am I!? This is probably not my room, wala akong ganitong kalambot na kama at mas lalong hindi rin ganito ang amoy ng kumot ko pati may aircon ako pero luma na so hindi na siya ganito kalamig. So where am I really? Bahala si batman, mapapagalitan pa rin naman ako eh so regardless whatever cause I'm just gonna go back to sleep, Fuck sino tong nasa tabi ko!?

I opened my eyes and saw Mino sleeping beside me, nasa gilid siya ng kama habang yung ulo niya ay nasa tabi ko lamang. Ang gwapo niya talaga, perfect sight na hindi mo pag sasawaan kahit araw araw mo pang makita but okay focus Aviery kase anong ginagawa niya dito at bakit ka nandito katabi niya? I'm pretty much certain na wala ako sa mansyon namin at hindi rin ito ang sa kanila, a hotel perhaps? Or hindi naman siguro to motel kase mabait na nilalang to si Mino kahit maloko sa ibang bagay, I mean mahilig siyang mang asar or mang good time.

I made a little movement which cause a tiny disturbance that's why he opened his eyes immediately and noticed that I'm awake, he smiled a bit and made his annoying expression which is his favorite thing to do first thing whenever he and I are together like this specially when we were young. Trust me nakakainis yung itsura niya ngayon, idagdag pa yung ngiti niya damn it. Akala ko mag isa lamang siya ngunit pag tayo ko ng maayos ay nakita ko sina Ryuu at Arc kasama sina Rylan pati Mirella, what on earth are they doing here!? Si Blanche at Ashryver nalang ang wala dito tapos kumpleto na ang buong student council ng Academy of Santa Monica.