"The Give Up"-song fic. ZillaKami and SosMula
Trigger Warning- suicide
It's hard to choose the easy way out The gun in the mouth your brains explode It's hard to end it all alone, inside of your room, your final home
Griffin was staring down at all the different ways of going out he had laid out on his bed. A rope, a razor, a knife, a pistol, and a bottle of pills laying there. The razor was for if he wanted to slit his wrists and bleed out, the knife was for slitting his neck or stabbing himself. He was gonna jump out his window but he was two floors up and wouldn't die from the fall, which is what he wanted. He'd just ruled out the pills, and the razor as well.
This gun is not for my protection I'm not safe from myself
He picked up the gun, and held it in his hand. He didn't mean for the gun to be used for that, he'd gotten it for security. Just in case one of their crazy fans (or haters) tried to break into the house, it was for protection, for all of them. It wasn't protecting him any more, quite the contrary, it was endangering him. Every time he would think about it, he would think about blowing his brains out. None of the other members even knew he had a gun, guess they would get a rude awakening to the information. The others would disapprove of this use of the gun but ultimately this was his decision.
You tell them jokes and they all laugh To fill the void, you entertain
He thought that becoming an influencer would make him happy, he thought making other people happy would make him happy. But it didn't make him happy, it just made everything worse for him. He hated almost everything about being a star, sure he had money, sure he had people who looked up at him, but the negatives out-wayed the positives. Too many people to make happy and impress, the hate, the paparazzi and constant stalking, the pressure, the drama, the scandals. Everything was too much for him.
He was overwhelmed, and he felt like he had no one to turn to, he was surrounded by people but they wouldn't understand. He had followers to make constant for, he had his parents to impress, he still had classes to do, was still training to be a nurse and he was basically taking care of 6 kids.
It's hard to make amends with them Silicon friends and empty souls
Being the oldest of the sway boys he was who they came to for everything, he was like a big brother or father since he was so chill. He had to make sure Bryce and Josh didn't do some illegal shit and go to jail, Jaden didn't do illegal drugs, Quinton was 16 and admired Griffin for all he was accomplishing, Anthony was living his best life independently, Kio was something else. He was struggling with some stuff and was staying in his room all day, he'd just gotten cheated on for the 3rd time in his life and he was really upset about it, Griffin would be a shoulder for Kio to cry on.
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