She Was Mine First

It Wont Get Easier

Anna's POV

ag has been out of the hospital for a few days now. everyday she seemed to be getting better. she was on bed rest still till her ribs and body healed.

my parents agreed for me to stay here with ag till she gets better. so i decided to finish off my senior year of high school online. this would allow me to stay in LA with AG.

she and i were staying in her own room downstairs, while ag's grandma stayed in her room upstairs. i took care of ag while mrs mcdaniel took care of her mom. we had a good system set up. this allowed for ag and i to have a lot of alone time.

ag's tbi has caused her to forget something's and get mad and irritated very easily. she had a very short temper. that was very hard for me because ag used to be so kinda and loving towards me. but this was a little hard. she would shout and yell if she was mad anytime.

time skip

"hey babe. here's your pills for the day. i got you some water to take with it." i tell her while handing her the glass and pills. she attempts to swallow her pills. i think having a tube down your throat feeding you and giving you fluids makes it harder for you to do it on your own afterwards.

i see her struggle to swallow the pill down. she continues to try till she nearly choked. she yelled, "fuck man!!" and threw the glass of water at the wall. i couldn't help but get scared from the glass shattering.

i get down to pick up the glass all over the floor. and i hear crying. i stand up and i see ag crying.

i walk over to her. "babe it will get better. you just have to understand it's going to be difficult for a bit." i say while rubbing her head. running my fingers through her hair. "but it won't. at times i forget who you are, at times i forget that i'm still hurt while trying to get up and hurting myself more. this fucking sucks. and all those girls got was 2 weeks of community service!" she cries while telling me.

"i just wish it was all back to normal. i just wish i was back in kentucky with mia and avery. and doing all things normal with you." "babe. everything happens for a reason. but i promise you. this will get better."

i felt bad for AG. i really did. she didn't deserve this. those girls never should've beat ag up. for what? being a gay? it made no sense. and the fact that mahua had something to do with it. i wanted to beat the shit out of every single one of them.

we had dinner and ag again tried to eat some soup. it was hard but she was able to eat a little.
i finished my classes early today so i wanted to spend time with ag. we decided to watch a movie.

i was about to lay down next to her when she yelled. "get away from me! who the fuck are you?" i try to calm her down and tell her it's me. she screams "get the fuck out! moooom!! she yells for her mom.

i knew all i could do to calm her was walk out. she didn't know who i was. as i stepped outside her door, her mom came running down the stairs. "what's wrong whats wrong" she asks me. she saw me crying. "did she forget you again?" she asked me again.

"yeah. i think she wants you." i tell her mom still crying. "anna. she knows who you are. it's just going to take time her her brain to heal." she hugs me and walks in to take care of ag.

ag's pov

my mom walks in. "hey are you okay?" she asks me.  "yeah i'm fine. where's anna?" i ask her. my mom sits down. "she's outside. you forgot her again." my mom tells me.

i didn't understand why i kept forget anna. she was there every single day and i seem to have these episodes where i feel myself slowly in pain. my head starts to hurt and my eyes start to feel like they are about to explode. i can tell when i'm in the most pain. then i don't remember anything. and after that i get out of whatever episode i had and anna is gone. i had forgotten her.

she walks back in my room. her eyes puffy. "anna i'm sorry. i didn't- i- i do remember you." i try to say."babe it's okay. i know." she says.

we went on with our day and watched a movie. my mom was asleep upstairs in my grandmas room. anna and i were in the middle of the movie when i asked her.

"anna do you ever wonder where we will be in the future? do you ever wonder if this will go back to normal?" i ask her. "well what do you mean?" she asks me. "well anna you and i have been very distant. you haven't kissed me since the day i woke up at the hospital, you are always worrying about me. i don't know. i just feel like you are here and i'm your charity. like i can't give you what you need. anna. it's your senior year. i want you to be happy and finish off school with your friends."

"babe. i didn't even realize you felt that way. babe i just don't want to hurt you. i'm sorry i haven't been showing affection. i guess i've been kinda scared to get you mad or you'd forget me. but i'm here with you. and my happiness is here with you. my senior year can wait. i'll be back for graduation anyways." she tells me.

i sit up and pause the movie. i lean closer to her and i kiss her. she kissed me back and feel her shoulders fall in relief. she pulls away. "i missed your kisses." i smile and i continue to kiss her.

i started to move my kisses down her neck, and she starts to breath heavy. as i kiss her neck down to her collar bone she moves her hands through my hair. she then sits on top of me and i feel fine. no pain at all. she sits on my lap while i go back to her lips. "is this okay?" she ask. "yeah your fine." we make out and this is the most connected i felt to her.

we were making out when i pulled away. "babe you okay?" she ask. i try to explain how i feel an episode about to happen. "my head is pounding and it's making it hard to focus. i think i'm about to have a episode." she gets off me, "should i leave?" she ask. "i don't think ill remember you. i don't know what happens during the episode." i tell her. "i'll go. you usually don't want me in here when you don't remember me." she says as she walks out.

anna's pov

i walk out the room. i really missed ag's kisses. and her touch. i'm glad we had that moment. and i'm very glad she can tell when she's about to have an episode. i think when we go back for her check up next week this will help the doctor get her meds for it.

i wait at least 10 min in the hall till i hear ag. "babe? anna?" and i walk in. she smiles. "i missed you." and i lay next to her till we fall asleep.

A/N: i hope you enjoyed and now understand the situation ag is in. it will help you understand the events that will happen in the story.