Learning life the hardest way

May 15, 2020

"i don't have much patience.
goodbye.."

The day I would never forget. I lost my friend maybe this time for forever. The only thing that still hurts me is, all the years of understanding ended with no prior reasons. I confess, I was really hurt, depressed and sad, nothing was making sense to me. I wished her to atleast understand me and never leave my side, in times like those, never.

But you gotta understand, Your healing process is your own. No one is supposed to accompany you in that. I still remember the old times where we used to have late night chats. We talked about everything and nothing at all.

This poem, is just what my heart couldn't say..

🌸🌸🌸🌸

It's Day 10 if I take cents out of it.
You still hit my brain, you don't get out of it.
All these years that I recall memories of you,
You were still a riddle for me, as I had no clue.

You were the complete opposite of chaos.
Still had me feeling turmoiled, yo adios!
Roses are red, mountains are huge.
You were the sun for me which I centrifuged.

No hard feelings, just a bunch of things to address.
I contributed to skeptic, to the believer God bless.
This isn't just said to make a grand statement.
All I intended was to love, and I plead my abatement.

I reminisce the old pictures in my head when I first saw you.
What a way to recall memory lane, a decade since I know you.
I was too late to hold you, or one I'd never be.
I will still stick by your side through whatever be.

This is my agreement, commitment, a vow.
Just know I'm a friend, even though I hate you now.
All I regret today is that I didn't deserve a word,
You left without commending, like I wasn't preferred.

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