Parental love (camren)

"I do"

TRIGGER WARNING!!!! Self harm.
Camilas POV

She said- said she loves me. Fuck. I thought I was okay. I can't breathe. Inhaling, running, tripping, I ran back to my bike and left again. I know Dinah knows that spot at the beach, so I'm going to the next town over to that beach. I need away, an escape, a free path. She loves me. She said it. Maybe it was the heat of the moment and she didn't mean it? Hopefully not.

I want her. I was getting ready to make sure my parents don't set me up on a date with anyone new. She was the one I liked, I'm pretty sure she's my soulmate. They say it's only werewolves that feel when they have met their 'mate' but I've felt a pull to Lauren since I met her, I want her to kiss me every second of everyday. For us to be near. For us to never part.

I've done fucked up havent I? She's never gonna want me back after I just ran away from her. She said she loved me and I. Well I guess I love her too. Wait that sounds wrong. I'm not guessing my love for her. I know I love her. WHY LORD COULDNT YOU LET ME FIGURE THAT OUT WHEN SHE SAID IT?! I've probably broken her heart by trying to learn mine.

They say when you look out into the ocean that the first person to come to mind, is the person you truly love the most. It's her. I want a white large wedding with her In a cute little tux because she gave a temper tantrum about being told to wear a dress by her mother and for her to look at me with pure adoration like she always does and say the words "I do". I want a family, 3 kids and 2 crazy dogs. It used to be this mystery person, but not when I think about it now. Our little boy named silver, I know it's a weird name, but it's cool, he'll be a ladies man because he will have my jaw and her eyes, her perky little grin and my brunette hair. He will be the definition of perfect. I know that's not how it works, but if she ended up having a dick, I would certainly not mind a single bit.

I need to find her. And go back to her. So I do. I'm going to find that girl if it's the last thing I do. Which proves not actually being a hard task because she's actually sat on the steps near my house waiting for me. Looks we had the same idea hahaha we are so fucking weird.

"LAUREN!!!" A girl shouts running up to Lauren and as Lauren turns to look at her she gets up and Hugs her like she hugs me. She wasn't out here for me? Shit. I park my bike and walk off to the garage and pull the ladders down to the hideout and pull the ladders up when I've done so she couldn't follow me if she wanted to. I sat myself down in the far corner and put the tv on to start blasting music as I cried like never before. Thinking she never loved me because she wouldn't have moved on so fast if she really even liked me in the first place.

Fuck I hate living. Maybe It's actually time to give up. So I do. I keep a blade in my pocket incase a man comes near in the black of night. Taking off my hoodie I cry even more because if I ended it here, no one would find me. Not even Lauren. She wouldn't even care to look.

1,3,5,7,9,11 cuts. Until my hand falls from the torture. I end up crying and crying until I fall asleep.

Lauren's POV

Vero ran up to me. She's one of my best friends, I love her to death.

"Hey laurennnnn, whatcha doooooin?" She asks in a high pitch voice.

"I was actually waiting for my girlfriend to come home, we ran into a small issue because the world always pulls hers down and I fucked up. She wanted time to think and when she came back I screamed at Dinah that I loved her and she ran off and back on her bike" I start tearing up at the end as the memories came flushing back word by word.

"Shit. That sounds like a lot. Wait a second-" I ur her off. "WHAT?! Have you seen her?! Is she okay?!"

"Lauren by the sounds of it. do you think she would be okay right now? No. Probably not. But is your girlfriend doe eyed brunette about 5'2''??"

"Yeah she is."

"She pulled up when I saw you. She watched you hug me. Surprised you didn't hear the bike. She ran inside. You should go. Talk to her. She looked like she wanted to. But imagine how she must feel now. She came back to you sitting waiting for you, wanted to talk to you, she then sees you hug me like that because I'm your best friend, after you said that you love her and she has the entire world against her right now?"

"Like shit. When did you get so wise? I'll go now to her, if I can find her"

"Well, babe. When you get Lucy inside of you. You share her wisdom" I gag because that's pretty fucking sickening thinking of your sister and friend fucking. I run inside.

"Dinah! Where is she?"
"Camila? She's still out." She starts walking to the garage. "Nope she's here. How the fuck did clumsy loud ass walz get inside without a sound."

Wait. The bike is in the garage. OUR SECRET SPOT! I run off up stairs leaving a confused Dinah behind and once I get inside I look everywhere till I see her with my torch light. Tear stains down her face and blood down her arms which have fallen on to her lap.

Shit. No no no. I can't lose her. Not now. I check for her pulse, she's breathing. Asleep but breathing.

"Camz, wake up. Please wake up, don't leave me. Wake up. I'm begging you" I finally shake her awake she looks dazed and confused.

"Lauren-"
"No don't say anything. Let's just get you cleaned up, okay?"

"No Lauren please."
She looks down and then meets my eyes again.
"Lauren i lo-"