𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐚𝐧 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

trustings - e.d

544 words
third person
every third thought : brika
( it won't let me upload the song :/ )

"am i a joke to you?"

"what are you talking about?"

"the day you left to 'go to a meeting', you went to emma's house. i saw her video, ethan. i heard you downstairs when she was filming." she said, voice slowly growing quiet.

"y/n, i stopped by after the meeting. she texted me first. she's my friend, so i went."

"if she's just a friend then why wasn't grayson there? did she not text him, too?"

"i guess not! do you not trust me?" his voice raised very slightly.

"i don't know if i completely do right now. ethan, you know i have a hard time with these things. this isn't me telling you to not hang out with her anymore, but can you please tell me when you go somewhere with her? can you at least do that for me?" she said, eyes welling up.

don't be so dramatic, she has major trust issues. her mother walked out on the family when she was seven, her first boyfriend left her after he used her for her body, and her best friend suddenly dropped her once she started hanging out with the "popular" kids. she loved ethan so much, she tried putting her trust issues behind her and focus on the love that he gave her. they never had sex, because he knew she wasn't comfortable, and he always, always reassured her when she wasn't feeling confident about herself.

"y/n, listen to me-" he walked up to her, gently picking her up and placing her on the kitchen counter so that they were eye to eye. he stared into her nervous irises with love, trying to calm her.

"i don't like emma like that. i have no feelings for her in any way, shape, or form that's even close to the feelings that i have for you. i know you have a hard time trusting people, but i want you to know that i love you, and i wouldn't do anything to hurt you. can you please tell me when you are mad at me? i'll say it again, i never want to hurt you." he watched as the tears in her eyes spilled over, landing on her sweater. he put his hands on her cheeks, wiping away the salty tears. she put her hands on his wrists, pulling him in for a tight hug. she buried her face in his neck, quietly sobbing.

"i just- can't lose anymore people." she put his hand in his hair, holding him impossibly closer.

"i know, hun, i know." he spoke in whispers, grabbing her waist and picking her up slowly. she wrapped her body around him as he brought her upstairs.

he placed her gently on the bed, pulling her sweatshirt over her head, leaving her in her favorite t-shirt. he walked to the other side of the bed, getting under the covers. he wrapped his arms around her waist, like he usually does.

"wait, can we switch?" she asked, looking down at him.

"yeah, of course." he removed his arms.

she moved down so that her arms were around his waist and her head was against his chest, right under his chin. she tangled her legs with his.

"i love you."

poisondols

written 09/03/20 at 2:03 am

published 09/03/20 at 3:06 am