"You mean the world to me Celia. You know that, right?"
I stared at the ring on my finger as I twirled it around.
"You only tell me that a hundred times a day." I said laughing.
"A hundred times? That's it? Wow. I need to work on that. Well, I guess I'll start now! Celia, you mean the world to me."
"Jimin, I know! You just said that."
"I just want to make sure you know that."
"Well I do. I promise."
We sat in silence for a moment before either of us spoke.
"I only have one week of chemo left. So by the time you get back from your trip next Thursday I will be officially cancer free."
I looked up at him and kissed his forehead.
"I know Jimin, your mom told me."
"Dang it mom! She always beats me to it! I can't tell her anything!"
We both started to laugh in response.
"Jimin, I don't know if I can handle being away for so long without you."
He smirked at me.
"Four days? You can't last four days without me? C'mon you can do it! At least its not a lifetime."
"Don't even talk like that! I wouldn't be able to live anymore. Why would you even say something like that?"
"Wait a second. Calm down Celia. I'm just trying to help."
"Why? How can I even calm down? And help? How are you helping?!"
"Well I just made four days without me seem like nothing, now didn't I?"
At that moment, all my anger dissolved.
"Yeah, you did...you little stinker...thanks."
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The day I left for Chicago with my family went alot more smoothly than I thought it would. And It felt alot easier to leave Jimin because he was officially done with chemo and four days now cancer free. So I didn't have anything to worry about.
That is Until we got home four days later. I carried all of my luggage upstairs to my room before calling Jimin to tell him I was home.
He didn't answer, but his mom did.
"Mrs. Park, yes its Celia, is everything alright? Is Jimin okay?"
"Actually he had a bit of an incident so we're at the hospital. We won't be home for a while so you're welcome to come see him."
I immediately hung up the phone, grabbed my car keys and ran out the door. All of the worst thoughts were going through my head as I drove to the hospital. So many that they were distracting causing me to not pay attention. That's when I ran the red light and another car smashed into mine. Everything was white then I passed out.
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"Why? Why did you have to come? Its all my fault. If I would have been more careful with the stove I wouldn't have burned myself and I'd never had had to go to the hospital. Or maybe if the doctor would have been faster..you never would have left."
My eyelids felt heavy. And alm ist every inch of my body hurt. Especially my head.
"Jimin?"
He looked up and saw me. "You're awake!"
"What...what happened? I feel so tired..."
"Shhh. It's okay." Jimin said as he knelt beside me my hand in his. Tears were spilling down his cheeks.
My eyes felt heavier.
"This isn't goodbye forever, okay?" Jimin said.
Goodbye? Who was leaving? Wait...was...was I...dying?
"No matter what I will always love you." Jimin said before kissing me on the forehead.
Just then someone in the room said "alright. Pull the plug."
Pull the plug. I was on a respirator. I was going to die. The accident caused too much trauma. That meant this was the end. I felt my fingers to find my promise ring from Jimin and held on tightly to it...until someone pulled my hands away and and held them.
It was getting harder to breath and my vision was growing blurry.
"Celia. I'm going to tell the world that I love you." Jimin said.
Seconds later he whispered into my ear "I love you."
"Why...why did you whisper that to me?" I managed to croak out.
"Because you're the world the me."
Once again I was met with a white light, but this time it was permanent.
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Jimin died 7 years later from the regrowth of a tumor in his lung that was too large to remove. He was found in his hospital room bed with my ring in his hand.
We're finally together, but our love story is one that the world will never know.
