Just Friends: A Noah Beck Story

75- Truth is Out

Indiana and Addison pile into your bedroom and find you curled up in bed holding a tear-stained pillow.

You: "How did everything get so messed up?"

Indiana rubs your back and Addison tries to reassure you that everything will be ok.

You: "How is anything going to be okay again when Dixie hates me and we won't be able to be together as a group ever again?"

Dixie: *steps thru the door into your room*
"I don't hate you. I was really mad, but I have never hated you."

Indiana moves and lets Dixie sit down next to you.

Dixie: "I don't understand why you were even out there."

You: "I couldn't sleep because Noah kept calling and I was so torn between not wanting to talk to him, but not wanting him to leave without saying goodbye. Then I looked out the window and saw Nick and he texted me to come down... and I just wanted to stop thinking for a minute. I never wanted things to go that far."

Dixie: "I don't even understand why you and Noah broke up?"

You: "He lied to me about school and when I confronted him about it, he chose to leave."

Dixie: "I know long distance is hard but you loved each other so much... why couldn't you make it work?"

You: "Why couldn't you and Griffin?"

Dixie: "We didn't break up because he was going away to school. We broke up because even in the same town he wanted space to see other girls. Noah only has ever wanted you."

You: "Moving as far away as he possibly could have to escape me sure doesn't feel like him wanting me."

Dixie: "I don't think he was trying to escape you. Maybe he just didn't want to rush so fast he missed out on an opportunity to play soccer for another 4 years."

You: "I wish I had the same option to slow down and worry about myself, but we all can't have what we want!"

Addison: "Y/N... of course you do. The best parts of senior year are in front of us and then we can all have this really great summer together. We can focus on that and maybe when Noah comes home for the summer you two can work things out?"

Y/N: "I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THAT!"

Dixie: "Of course you do-"

Y/N: "I'm pregnant."

You hear everyone in the room gasp except Indiana including someone behind you. You turn to see your mother standing in your doorway carrying a pile of folded laundry she was bringing you. Before you can scramble for an explanation, your mom kicks everyone out of the room. Indiana takes them all out of the house to give you and your mom a chance to talk. You're preparing for her to yell at you while you think of how you're possibly going to get through this, when you finally look up to see tears spilling down her face.

You: "I'm so sorry mom. I never meant for this to happen. It was just a horrible mistake and if I could take it back I would... but I can't."

She can't bring herself to respond so you continue:
"I know you're disappointed in me..."

Mom: *finally breaking her silence*
"It's not that. I just... I just am really hurt you didn't come to me."

Seeing how much your mom is trying to understand just made you feel awful. After she'd been so understanding about things with Noah at the beginning of your relationship, you had promised her to keep opening up to her and not shutting her out just because your dad couldn't let you grow up.

Mom: "Wait how far along are you? You and Noah broke up almost 2 months ago and he left over a month ago? Did you sleep with someone else?"

You: "No. It's Noah's. I'm almost 5 months along."

She was absolutely shocked as she responded:
"You need to tell your dad."

You guys decide to tell dad together and he's furious at first. He is so busy ranting about Noah leaving that he hasn't laid into you yet and you're relieved. Your mom defends that Noah didn't know when he decided to go and in fact still doesn't know.

Dad: "Y/N? Is this true? Why haven't you told him?"

You: "Dad he already made his mind up what he wanted for his future. I don't want him to lose that."

Dad: *getting made and louder*
"But he is responsible for this too and if that's the consequence then so be it."

You: "He didn't want me bad enough to include me in that future so I don't want to use this to force him to choose differently. It's my choice to pay for this mistake alone. I can do this alone."

Your dad just shakes his head at you and walks away. His silent disappointment hurts worse than yelling ever will.